Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Soooo need to mug.
Really glad for my BSF group. =) Yay
Really glad for Dom Yeo. =) Yay
Soooo need to mug.
Posted by nayrakroarual at 11:27 PM
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Sunday, September 20, 2009
Are you tired of chasing pretty rainbows?Are you tired of spinning round and round?
Wrap up all those shattered dreams of your life
And at the feet of Jesus lay them down.
He never said you'd only see sunshine
He never said there'd be no rain
He only promised a heart full of singing
About the very thing that once brought pain.
Haha I was pretty emo this entire week. Reached a climax about midweek, it was really pretty awful. I tell you it's the influence of all those psychology studies ("Rate, on a scale of 1-5, how DEPRESSED you felt during the past two weeks." "Have you ever contemplated suicide?" "Strongly Disagree, Disagree, Agree or Strongly Agree: I am dissastisfied with my life.") but I actually thought about committing suicide at a couple of points.
Not seriously, of course, but it really did seem like the only way out at that point. Which goes to show, I guess, how God can really work in ways that are so amazing, so much more beyond what we could ever even begin to imagine. Right at my lowest point, He reached in and lifted me back on my feet again. =) I serve a truly, truly marvelous God. Wow.
=)
Anyway, recess week's here! Gotta buckle down and mug hard - I realised, to my absolute horror, that the psych mid-term and paper are on the same week (that is, the week after the week after recess week) and that they comprise 50% of my final grade. I did not come this far to fail, so yeah. MUGGERISM AWAITS.
In the meantime, though, my pillow takes priority! XD goodnight, world.
Posted by nayrakroarual at 11:11 PM
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Wednesday, September 16, 2009
i wonder if blogging is supposed to help (since ice cream evidently no longer does so). haha. have this feeling it's compounding the problem! :P
Seriously though, I think all the Psych Research experiments I've been doing have a detrimental effect on my emotional state! Now every time I'm hungry/not hungry (i.e., all the time) I'll think that it's an effect of anxiety! Or sweating (hot) or shivering (cold) or sleeping too much or sleeping too little... LOL.
The problem with these social phenomena (e.g. anxiety) is that their physical manifestations (e.g. loss of appetite) may have more than one cause. So we can never really be sure when they're caused by it, and when it's just something else. Or when it's "just psychological." HAHA okay well yay at least I remembered a bit from the PL2131 tutorial! Lol.
Interview tomorrow! I'm so excited and nervous at the same time =D
Posted by nayrakroarual at 11:08 PM
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Hmm. I think I should stop posting such emo posts. Lol.
Today (yesterday) was a lot better than Monday. But then Monday kinda sucked.
Got back Paper 1. =) Thank you, God. =)
Forgot to bring the lecture notes I'd printed for EL. Good job, laura.
Lunch.
Studied in Reading Room.
Read 1984. It is depressing.
Chatted with Marvin, Kiera and JingMin. =)
Tuition. Almost fell asleep again. Realised it's less than a month to PSLE. Heh.
Dinner.
BSF. Love the BSF girls. Nice talking to Hilary. Wish I could've talked to her/Luisa/LiPing/YueZhen/Priscilla more.
Walked back to the station with Dom, Denys and Denys's friend. Talked to Dom. He's awesome. Told me to email the researchers, which I did. Which worked. Thank you Dom!
MRT-ed to City Hall with Denys. Train was pretty empty. Thank God. Bag was $^%&*( heavy.
Mum Papa picked me up from the station.
Drove home.
Drove out again to get ice cream. (yes, I believe in food therapy.) NTUC ran out of Dreyers Chocolate Cake and MiniMagnum. %^*&%*(. Bought a Mac's Hot Fudge Sundae, forced it down. Tasteless. Guess food therapy doesn't always work.
Went home.
Wasted time.
Chose worship songs, chatted.
Going to sleep.
*click*
Posted by nayrakroarual at 2:58 AM
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Monday, September 14, 2009
laugh. cry. scream. shout. smash something.
do nothing at all.
...
will you hate me after all this?
Labels: emo
Posted by nayrakroarual at 10:53 PM
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Sunday, September 13, 2009
In this chapter, you will learn that:
- Marital satisfaction increases as one moves up the class structure, where divorce laws are liberal, when teenage children leave the home, in families where housework is shared equally, and among spouses who enjoy satisfying sexual relations
..Soooo, marital satisfaction increases with the ability to divorce? And when you get rid of the children? Wow, that's heartening. Why don't we just not get married, and not have children, and so up the satisfaction level all around?
- The worst effects of divorce on children can be eliminated if there is no parental conflict and the children's standard of living does not fall after divorce.
?!??!! If there is no parental conflict, then WHY would they get divorced?! -.- OBVIOUSLY there will be conflict what! Dots..
Labels: debates, musings
Posted by nayrakroarual at 5:58 PM
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Go study, Laura.
Posted by nayrakroarual at 4:09 PM
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Wednesday, September 09, 2009
Hello again. Guess where I am?
That's right. Exactly where I was this time two weeks ago, give or take a few computers. Haha. I was going fine, but my laptop died so I have no way of working on my paper 1. =( Boo. So I'll have to skip soci, and probably come back to school after tuition, after all. Rawrrr.
New tutor this week. This one's a little cooler - still has a heavy hongkong accent, but less sleep-inducing. (And he walks around the class so I can't sleep. Haha. That's probably what helps, actually..)
Wondering what to do. RAwrrr. desufnoc.
haha haikel just realised i have a blog. SO THANKFUL we are in the same stats tutorial my GOSH. Haha. And I just realised I am missing 2 pages of my stats tutorial! WTH. Nonsense. gah.
Labels: events, friends, school
Posted by nayrakroarual at 3:47 PM
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Good morning, God! =)
Yayy today's a beautiful day =) Thank you for this day, Lord! May I live for your glory, letting your will be done in my life today! Yay =)
love, laura
Posted by nayrakroarual at 9:10 AM
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Tuesday, September 08, 2009
In a nutshell:
Life rocks.
Life sucks.
School sucks.
School rocks.
And it's always complicated.
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Sprained my ankle during netball, don't think I can play floorball tomorrow DARN IT. Although it actually is healing really well, I think I'll be able to walk normally in a day or two, maybe even tomorrow! *crosses fingers*
The USP IFG netballers really rock though. Love them to the max, honestly. And all the wonderful people who came down to support too. =D Yay!
It actually feels a little hypocritical to say "yay" when I'm just sitting here staring (rather sian-ly) at my com screen. There's so much work that I SHOULD be doing but I'm not. And I'm just so confused as to what the hell I am doing... Not confused actually because I know what I should be doing but that's bloody far from what I am doing and I really hate that. It's just so nice sometimes, and then I feel really happy and all but then I also feel like I'm being double faced or heartless or I dunno just ARRGH. Sure, challenges and uncertainty and all this ^&*% make life exciting, but sometimes I just wish life would be SIMPLE, straightforward, uncomplicated, and happy. gAH.
Okay. Fine. I know I don't really want to be presented with a simple no-choice life. Haha. But sometimes it's really tempting. Especially when you feel like a blood-sucking deadweight *sshole of a friend, or an evil monster in lamb's clothing. A spoilt, lame lamb's skin. *bares fangs* RAWRRRRRRRRRR
Labels: emo, events
Posted by nayrakroarual at 8:29 PM
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