Thursday, October 30, 2008
Whoo hoo! Cleaven is a genius! And awesome! Yayyyy (: (: (:
I was very depressed for most of the afternoon because I was struggling through the HCI physics paper 3 and it totally killed me. I called michelle for help but she was asleep. And boo to MichelleLim/ Nicholas/ Wei-An who don't take physics! Bleargh. Thought about calling PeeHua but she said she was at the library. And then miracle of miracles I had a massive revelation
I CAN CALL CLEAVEN!
I mean seriously laura, you know he's like super nice and helpful and smart and yeah! Lol. SO. I called. And he explained. And I UNDERSTOOD AND THEREFORE I AM HAPPY YAYYYYYYY
hahaha reminds me a lot of the consultation we had with mr wong yesterday about the Value of Knowledge and the idea of Knowledge for Knowledge's Sake. Haha. And YES INDEED, there are people who find joy in
knowing something, even though it is of absolutely no use to them, just the knowledge makes them happy! Yay! XD
three days! but i'm not freaking out because GOD IS ON OUR SIDE WHO CAN BE AGAINST US XD
And jiayou jiayou k! I love you guys! Drink lots and lots of water and vitamin C and sleep early so you can fight of the exam sickness that's going around =( everyone seems to be falling ill! Sigh
Oh Mummy made this rather nice "breakfast bars" (roasted nuts and raisins stuck together somehow and totally covered in melted chocolate). It was alright, but I love them because well it's rather hard to hate anything covered in that much chocolate. YUM (:
Yay! Jiayou! Whoohoo!
Posted by nayrakroarual at 11:37 PM
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Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Every now and then I do something stupid. Like lunch this (last, really) sunday. Or just now. Or last year in Hokkaido. Or..
In fact, more than now and then. But whatever, that's life, right?
I read this quote somewhere that the only really important time in you life is the time you waste with the ones you love.
I think it's rather true. Except that it isn't time wasted.
MichelleZ's going adelaide! And I was telling her how nice it was and all. But then as I was telling her about when I went there, my mind actually just drew a blank. The only thing I could remember was that day in the park where Mel Luc and I just stopped and randomly camwhored like crazy. And that other day when Mel and Luc went shopping with their parents, while my family plus the twins went hiking/trail-walking. It was some wilderness place, and we hiked in and at the end of the trail (the centre of the wilderness forest mountain whatever can't remember) there was this waterfall. And a wooden platform to look at it. But you could go a little further than the platform, to go really close to the waterfall. I remember us taking lots of pictures there and climbing the rock wall (natural, not rockclimbing fake) and yeah!
And that other time Mum asked Daniel David and me what we enjoyed most about the family holidays we'd been on so far. And we thought about it, and we all said it was the playing ginrummi at night in the hotel. And Mum was like huh! In that case we should just stay home! Haha.
But yeah. See! It's the fun you have together, not actually what you have fun doing, that counts.
Can't wait for korea. Seriously.
And mel hasn't been online! Okay well dom says she has just too late for me. LOL. :(
And I miss talking to luc. :( :( I need to make more effort. Stupid, laura.
Posted by nayrakroarual at 10:30 PM
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There's never enough time to do all the nothing you want.
But nothing's stopping me from trying, anyway. (:
Posted by nayrakroarual at 9:05 PM
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Monday, October 27, 2008
You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness there inside you
Makes you feel so small
But I see your true colours
Shining through
I see your true colours
That's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colours
True colours are beautiful,
Like a rainbow
Show me a smile then,
And don't be unhappy, can't remember when
I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there
Posted by nayrakroarual at 12:13 PM
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Saturday, October 25, 2008
I think I'm being way too complacent for KI. Shit. I really need to work harder, but arrgh not like my other subjects can afford me to steal time away from them either =(
Maybe Wei-An'll drop by after church tomorrow, and I can pick his brains for KI. Lol. I suck. Oh Daryl's gonna kill me. I kept his notes for like a week now. Hee.
Speaking of which, I am going to kill HaiWei. It's been a week and one day! I want my physics notes back! RAWRRRRRr
..And I need to find my physics notes (page A4). It's somehow gone. HOW CAN IT BE GONE =( NOOOOO
Crap. Thank God not leading til after A's next month. I might die. No, I wouldn't. Sigh. Whatever. RAWR!
Okay. Haha. Gotta go. Hopeful church'll be fun tomorrow! Yay (:
Although it's gonna be stressful. GOD HELP ME PLEASE
Posted by nayrakroarual at 8:46 PM
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Friday, October 24, 2008
Some of the secret joys of living are not found by rushing from point A to point B, but by inventing some imaginary letters along the way. ~Douglas Pagels, These Are the Gifts I'd Like to Give to You
*breathe in, breathe out*
Posted by nayrakroarual at 11:15 PM
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Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Psalm 55:22
Cast your cares on the Lord
and he will sustain you;
he will never let the righteous fall.
Psalm 54:4
Surely God is my help;
the Lord is the one who sustains me.
Psalm 48:14
For this God is our God for ever and ever;
he will be our guide even to the end.
Oh wow I LOVE psalm 48. It's such a joyful psalm of praise to God. It's not about us, it's about God. GOD is the great one. GOD is the sustainer. GOD is the provider. GOD is the fortress. GOD is GOD. He sustains us, but it's not that we are sustained. The focus must be that he is the sustainer.
I always forget that. Sorry, God.
All the best, guys =) It's only a little while more, lets do our best from now on so we will have no last regrets ;)
I love you guys! Jiayouuuuu
'll be praying for you =)!
Posted by nayrakroarual at 11:02 PM
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We're all so wrapped up in our little small lives at the moment. But I suppose that's a good thing. If we weren't, if we stepped back and looked at the big picture now, our hearts would seize with fear, a sort of helpless panic because the very questions that define who we are, we cannot answer -
"what am I doing here?" "why am I doing this?"
And also, because if we were seized with this helpless panic our minds would give up the fight - the battle I am currently losing and the war we all hope to win - and just huddle and shudder at the sheer despair of it all.
Can you tell I've been doing too much Absurd Drama?
Well, actually, not enough.
Posted by nayrakroarual at 12:02 AM
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Saturday, October 18, 2008
Are you crazy, laura? Why aren't you asleep?
Posted by nayrakroarual at 2:32 AM
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Thursday, October 16, 2008
The littlest star doesn't have to try to outshine the moon. It already does. Because no matter how small its light is in comparison, its light is its OWN. It's own glory from within. It shines. All the moon does is ever reflect the sun's glory. Borrowed shine.It's pretty. But don't fall for it - the stars will always outshine it. =)
Posted by nayrakroarual at 12:19 AM
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Wednesday, October 15, 2008
The moon is always nicer when there's someone to enjoy it with. Haha. I got the quote from this Calvin and Hobbes comic book my brothers borrowed. I'm rather sad that I've finished reading them (all three! ugh gonna fail As at this rate) because yeah they're really funny and witty and gorgeous haha I LOVE Calvin and Hobbes seriously. Sigh.
But yes. So I'm not up on the roof tonight. David wanted to go all the way to the top yesterday when he mum and I went out to see. It's lovely sharing stuff with him. He really appreciates these kind of things.
I think it's partly because he's a romantic at heart (or in the making, I suppose) but also a lot because he's still so young. Daniel is sometimes so jaded.
I mean, he's funny, and really great to talk to (conversations with David tend to either end really abruptly or degenerate into childish argument - "did not." "did too." "did not." "did too infinity!" "did not INFINITY PLUS ONE!" "you can't infinity plus one!" "can too." "can not." "can too." ...you get the idea)
...but in the end, Daniel often sees the low side of life. Not the depressed side, just the really practical, right-now, your-little-world-little-life side. David does too, because he's still such a kid, but he's also open to the big ideas. The big dreams.
When we went up on the roof that one afternoon, it was David who wanted to go exploring the roofs. Daniel was far from scared, but he just went, "Oh, nice. Okay, I'm going back in." David wanted to see all the rest of the houses. We play hide-and-seek. Shout from the rooftop. Sing at the top of our voices to the world there. Little things. But sometimes it's when we let go of these little things that never seem to matter, to hold on to the big things that we think do -- that's when we lose sight of the even larger things that really do matter.
Big big world... =)
Posted by nayrakroarual at 9:20 PM
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Tuesday, October 14, 2008
The night has a thousand lights and the day has but one,yet the light of the bright world dies with the dying sun.The mind has a thousand eyes, and the heart but one;yet the light of a whole life dies when love is done.~*~ (beautiful poem, isn't it? Thanks Shreya =))The moon is bright tonight. It's beautiful. Here's the thing about beauty - it's glory from within, not an outward vanity that soon fades. That's why they say there no glow as bright as that of someone in love. Because the glory is from within, not without."I'm lazy to go to the window.""I can't see the moon from my window.""It's just round, what's the big deal?"It's bright. It's shining with all God's glory tonight. Take some time and LOOK! Stop doing all those urgent things and crowding yourself with all the chores and tasks and things, and just concentrate for a moment on what's really important - the shining glory plain for you to see. Yet we miss that glorious crown, because we don't look up. We just keep on searching through the chaff on the floor, convinced we'll find some precious treasure among it all, something to give us purpose and make us feel worthwhile.Look up! The answer is there. The glorious shining is blazing out, the crown is ours for the taking if we would just stop for a moment, and reach out...
Posted by nayrakroarual at 11:14 PM
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Monday, October 13, 2008
Morning Poem by Mary Oliver (1986)Every morningthe worldis created.Under the orangesticks of the sunthe heapedashes of the nightturn into leaves againand fasten themselves to the high branches -and the ponds appearlike black clothon which are painted islandsof summer lilies.If it is your natureto be happyyou will swim away along the soft trailsfor hours, your imaginationalighting everywhere.And if your spiritcomes within itthe thornthat is heavier than lead -if it's all you can doto keep on trudging -there is stillsomewhere deep within youa beast shouting that the earthis exactly what it wanted -each pond with its blazing liliesis a prayer heard and answeredlavishly,every morning,whether or notyou have ever dared to be happywhether or not you have ever dared to pray.
Posted by nayrakroarual at 11:24 PM
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It's rather hard to bare your soul on an unlocked online journal that your parents have access to. (AND THAT YOU ARE DESPERATELY HOPING ARE NOT READING.) Sigh.
I feel like eating chocolate. Lol.
Posted by nayrakroarual at 10:20 PM
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Saturday, October 11, 2008
I don't whether I'm a bad person, or just confused.
Maybe it's both. That would be ultra bad.
Anyway, worship practice today was fun. And yesterday too. It's nice having Marcus back. And Mark is really improving like crazy, his singing is getting a lot better wow I'm impressed! It was nice having Karina play for the whole thing, too. Even though Shaun and Dom are awesome. Shaun is a multitude of styles and all. But Karina and Marcus can hit it off like Shaun and Dom. I hope we can really build up a strong.. connection? Yeah. With this worship team and all. I really hope so!
Studying was... alright. I am NEVER gonna just pass Daniel my chem book again. I bet he only did a couple of questions, one of which was in the morning while I was still around. And yet my book is visibly tattered and crumpled. And I was supposed to do chem today, but ended up doing math because I lent him my book. Gah.
Love talking to Janet. And studying with her and her palsy whose name I cannot spell (and who is cute! and a dancer! haha I've very wowed by the latter part).
Dom Kuek too! He's so cute. Haha. In a different way. It's fun talking to him because I can don't care and not be serious and yeah he's just nice. Thank God for good friends! Yayy mich lim mich zhuang peehua janet domkuek eugenia karina haiwei mark even like deon and yeah yayyy i love you all =)
We will make this true. YEAH GUYS TWENTY ODD DAYS LEFT
Posted by nayrakroarual at 9:09 PM
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Sunday, October 05, 2008
online shopping is WAY therapeutic. XD YAY!
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Saturday, October 04, 2008
WHOO HOOO SOOOOO COOOOOL MY DAD IS SO EXTREMELY AWESOME!Yeah! I was getting a nailclipper from mum's table and heading out of their room when he came in and like beckoned with his finger (which I thought was weird since I was more in the room than he and so technically he was beckoning out of the room but whatever) and said "hey come I show you something"
So I followed him to his desk, thought he was gonna show me some scholarly article or something
and then he pulled out of his desk
THE NEW IPOD NANO!WOW WHEE!!! Haha of course I totally flipped WOWWHEE SO COOL hahahhaha yeah! And he wouldn't even let me TOUCH it -.- !@#$%^&*(& !! but then in the end he passed it to me and I was grinning like shit and whooping and jumping hahaha wowwheee so cool
And then he said he could give it to me if I uploaded the bible onto it (I'm still unsure if "it" is my ipod (which is actually mum's), the one I'm gonna pass to him, or the one he's currently passing to me, but whatever) WHOO HOO and mum came in and totally said no way are you crazy that's what I told her and it totally didn't work
And I was rather miffed, btw. Because I HAD actually loaded the bible onto my (her) current ipod and listened to it and all and it had taken ages so it was kind of annoying that she just assumed I'd disobeyed *angry*
But yeah! Then my dad was like "errr" and I was hanging around hopping excitedly around their bed while they both just lay on their backs and stared at me lazily haha and finally I was like "so can I have it please please please?" mum: "no. after you get your 4As." (that is totally bogus, she's been holding that one over me for whenever I want stuff =( RAWRRR) papa: (pause) "ehh... I already told her..." me:"YAY THANK YOU PAPA!!!" (runs off before he can change his mind)
WHOOHOOOO SO COOL *beams* my dad is the ultimate coolest dad on earth i swear
Posted by nayrakroarual at 8:30 PM
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Thursday, October 02, 2008
okay.
just.
wow.
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I was going to blog but I need to tutor Daniel so I will log off. My mum is being paranoid and wants me to buy tys for Daniel -.- he's in sec one for goodness sake. But yes. Goodbye.
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