Thursday, June 23, 2005
Time for GodI knelt to pray, but not for long -
I had too much to do.
I had to hurry and get to work,
For bills would soon be due.
So I knelt and said a hurried prayer,
Then jumped up off my knees.
My Christian duty was now done
My soul could rest at ease.
All day long I had no time
To spread a word of cheer.
No time to speak of Christ to friends -
They'd laugh at me, I'd fear.
"No time, no time, too much to do-"
That was my constant cry
No time to give to souls in need
But at last, the time to die.
I went before the Lord, I came, I stood with downcast eyes.
For in his hands God held a book -
It was the book of life.
God looked into his book and said,
"Your name I cannot find.
Perhaps I meant to write it down,
But never found the time."
Why is it so hard to tell the truth but yet so easy to tell a lie?
Why is it so hard to talk about God but yet so easy to gossip and complain?
Why is it so boring to read the bible, yet so easy to read our magazines and books?
Why is it so simple for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell?
Why is it that once a message gives glory to the Lord, people think twice about sharing?
Why are the churches getting smaller and the bars and dance clubs getting larger?
Why are we so sleepy in church but suddenly perfectly awake when the sermon is over?
Why are we more worried about what other people think of us than what God thinks of us?
Why do we say "I believe in God" but still live by the Devil (who, by the way, also believes in God)?
Why do we often spread juicy rumours without a second's thought but hesitate to share a word about God?
Why do we have a wealth of dirty jokes and yet can hardly remember a few verses from the bible?
If you were to forward this message, how many people in your address book would you hesitate to list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they will think of you for sending it to them?
I wonder how many people will not read this because of its title.
I wonder how many people will read this
because of the title, and then go away shaking their heads at the fairytale i believe in?
I wonder.
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Wednesday, June 22, 2005
NO CHEATING. YAYYY.
http://www.quizyourfriends.com/yourquiz_IM.php?quizname=050622103357-166711
Posted by nayrakroarual at 10:38 PM
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Wednesday
22.06.05
class chalet rocked. will update more later. ms low and chun han's mum were super nice and charissa and chun han are super pro at pool and samuel and charissa are super pro at bowling. and simran and xx and charissa are super pro at tennis. and justin, too. okay. WILL UPDATE LATER.
anyway. desperate calls. anyone who knows anyone in mobile computing and how i can contact them. i can't find the site to pass up my 2 month-overdue homework. and i need desperate help for the webfolio. tell me again what we are supposed to do? ><
and starting to regret slacking and panicking about holiday hw. diediedie.
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Thursday - Saturday16-18.06.05ORPC Church Camp 2005[[pursuing God's agenda]]Day 1.group: "whotch it!"
Joshua Lim Wei Hao [leader. st Pats. (no comments)]
Pearlyn =D [assistant group leader, ex-SC-girl (therefore ex-senior), roommate 1]
Kexin =D [SC-girl (therefore ex-junior), roommate 2]
Hannah, Joanna, Rudolf (zombie!), Earl, Amos (NO comments)
Dawn & Clarence ("helloo!")
the rest of the day we blahblahblahblahblahblah...
Day 2.Preacher Ruth and Rev David Burke rock. haha.
anyway, the topic was BGR. we split into guys-girls. then Pr Ruth asked us who has dated before. so just raise hand lor... i knew Vic had (no duh!) but i was surprised Mel had too. haha and LUCINDA!!! (okay so i kinda expected her to raise her hand but i bet she was surprised at me. lol. her expression was damn funny...
lucinda: "eh you! you never tell me about this guy!! who is it?? huh huh?"
laura: "as if you tell me like that... what have you been doing huh? why never tell me? hmm??"
haha. quite funny. but yeah. the session was good... we talked about stuff you, or at least I, can't talk to my parents about. *shrug*
When a guy asks you to go out, how can you tell if he means it seriously...as in a date or just like any other friend?
When is an "appropriate" age to start dating? what about serious dating?
To what extent is PDA acceptable for a Christian couple?
Is it WRONG for a Christian to date a non-Christian, or just not advisable?
things guys need to know- not all girls have PMS.
- not all women are naggy.
- not all bad drivers are women.
- when a girl cries, be there for her rather than just walking away. (but please look at the situation--no one is saying you must always give her a hug, joshua!)
- when a girl is looking down (or worse, crying), don't ask her if she's alright/okay.
- when you know a friend is PMSing, do not broadcast it.
- learn when to be decisive, guys.
- do not criticise your girlfriend in public. [Dawn & Valerie said this. i wouldn't know, don't get any ideas.]
- do not grumble when we shop.
- do NOT, i repeat do NOT use deoderant so excessively. [this was
unanimous regardless of age and availability. guys, TAKE NOTE.]
- (lol.) learn to understand how we speak. [refer to examples below.]
eg1. (by Pearlyn)
guy: "what would you like to eat?"
girl: "anything."
-guy comes back with food-
girl: "i don't want this!"
guy: "but you said 'anything'!"
girl: "yeah, but not this!"
[guy, do not grumble. hint: maybe you can offer an option (eg. "this or this?"). but don't over push. sometimes the girl really means "anything".]
eg2. (by Valerie, with a large agreement)
-girl looks sad/is crying-
guy: "are you alright?"
girl: "i'm fine."
guy: "ok lor."
[GUYS!! do NOT say that whatever you choose to do!!]
so. sometimes our "no" means "no" and sometimes it means "yes". and same for our "yes", "anything" and "i'm fine".
things girls should know about guys. (by the guys)
- when guys are quiet, it doesnt mean we don't care about girls
- when guys go out with their ex, it doesnt mean they are dating their ex
- when guys dont look at girls, it doesnt mean we are gay
- when guys dont look at you, it doesnt mean we dont care
- when guys dowan to talk, it only means that we are tired, not tired of you
- when guys say sweet things to you(a girl) or about a girl, it doesnt mean we are flirting/ interested in that girl
- crying, having a good dress sense and having feelings does not mean we are gay
*disclaimer: all the above were compiled by the majority of our youth group. it does not necessarily hold true for EVERY case. just most ^^
Day 3.
[too tired to blog.]
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Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Wednesday
15.06.05
ixoras and periwinkles.
haha. went club med. it was quite boring at first because i wasnt really in the mood to try the bungee or trapeze and they cancelled the volleyball which i was looking forward to. so guess what i ended up doing?
tennis.
now. it woudn't have been so bad. (in fact, it wasn't.) i was playing with this guy and his father whom i have never met before but apparently go to my church therefore my father knows them. (speaking of my father, he plays tennis quite well, but obviously i didnt inherit those particular genes.) the guy had just started learning too (his second try, i think), but i was still far and away the worst.
normally tennis courts are surrounded by this nice tall netting thing to stop the balls from going out. but see, these particular tennis courts have LOW nets. and they were seperated by this LOW bush. bush of ixoras, with a few periwinkles in between. now, i am not a botanically-inclined person and i wouldnt have noticed the periwinkles--indeed it is debatable whether i would have acknowledged the ixoras at all-- but for the fact that 99% of my balls did not land inside the court. and a good 50% of that landed in that periwinkle-and-ixora bush. funny, i could land 10 serves into that thin strip of bush, but not in the other half of the tennis court that was 5 times as wide.
plus, you probably know that periwinkles are poisonous, but this is the first time i realised ixoras have thorns. bah.
and because the netting was so low, i spent quite a lot of time running out of the enclosure to get the tennis balls.
on a lighter note, i think i have potential for a softballer. =D
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Saturday, June 11, 2005
Saturday
11.06.05
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AARON!!! =D
whee. watched Piglet's Big Movie today. and the Matrix. don't ask me why i haven't watched the matrix until now--i spent most of the movie covering my eyes, okay? anyway Piglet's Big Movie has some really nice songs. =D
I took a leaf outta zhi hui's book, started writing again. most of this i wrote last year or so, and a lot of it is adapted. so don't expect zhi hui's standard. *shrug*
The more I look inside
The more he isn't there
What am I supposed to do?
When he is not everywhere...
Maybe I will draw a picture
And while I'm busy doing that
My mind will wander off somewhere
And you will re-appear
My mind will wander off somewhere
And you will be right here
-adapted from Piglet's Big Movie-
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It seemed that there were still things that one could not do, could not endure. So one did everything else as well as the one possibly could and found new things to try, to will oneself to master, and always one realised, at the kernel and the heart of things, that the ends of the earth would not be far enough. How could one escape from the hell of his own mind?
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How can one live without pain? There can be no pain without happiness and no happiness without pain, for no pain is no happiness.
This is life. Even if one has no pain of his own, there is the pain of someone else. To lead a painless life is to lead an emotionless life. And an emotionless life is impossible. Emotion is like rays of light, glancing off everyone else and onto you. You can hide, but you will never be free from all of it.
Do you want to be?
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-Shining might recognise this. dedicated to the Mortician. -
I am stone. Nothing matters to me, because I cannot feel, I do not care. You cannot touch me. You cannot touch me, because nothing can touch me. I am a lake in winter, frozen over. Calm, cold, emotionless. Serene. This is my heart. This is what I strive to be.
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Thursday, June 09, 2005
Thursday
09.06.06
hmm.
The thing i like about vj netball is that unlike sc netball(or dance) it has no politics, and unlike vj dance it does not have no friends.
And of course unlike RCC i do not need to overcome a fear of heights, although i do need to overcome a phobia of the ball.
Can't wait for team selections (2nd week of school). if i get in, then we can FINALLY get on with training. if i don't get in, i finally know what i have to drop. haha. (though i think[hope] they'll take all the VIP-ers. =D)
Hope we won't be doing just PT on the first week of school. but you know what, i think we will. you can't play a 7-per-team sport with 5 people--even half court doesn't work. i hate ball handling i hate ball handling i hate ball handling. i hate back arches i hate back arches i hate back arches. and I HATE RUNNING I HATE RUNNING I HATE RUNNING!!! which is probably all we're gonna do. wonderful.
yay. and i wanna watch Mr. and Mrs. Smith. And madgescar with charissa eunice aaron etc. though if they're watching next week... *shrug*
ARGH. why is no one online that i can talk to? and dawn i need to talk to you bahhh(omg i sound like zhi hui) haha. but i'm super bored now and i don't know how to do my homework. wonderful. nevermind i'll ask more people later when they come online (*ignores voice inside that says "procrastination..."*). i'm sure someone has done or knows how to do lang arts. =D
oh yeah.
please cheer up =D
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Wednesday, June 08, 2005
Tuesday
07.06.05
went out yesterday...haha. saw olivia, danielle, the queensway sec girl from the fifth level of my block, tammy, Xh, beatrice. haha. like olivia said, i saw her in "the level 4 female (du-uh) toilet". haha. super coincidental lar. for all you know, we might have been watching the same movie. found out how to spam nudge!! (*super happy*) thanks to samuel and nazri...
yayy. and went out debators lunch today. so fun...zhi hui and all rock la. can't wait for badminton tomorrow!!! gonna meet auntie siew ee and family!! haha yayy i wonder how melvin plays now. he was quite good last time. hope michelan comes... (*ahem* michelle you better come kay...) haha we're gonna have so much fun! yayy.
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Monday, June 06, 2005
Monday
06.06.05
in no order of merit:
Ms low
thanks for being there for me when i needed help, for guiding me and teaching me. For encouraging me when i was down, for being someone to talk to when i had no one to turn to—for being a friend, as well as a guide and a teacher. I think you know how much you've helped, but i wanted to especially thank you for your understanding, and for just listening to me when i needed help.
Ms toh
thanks for drying us off and giving us hot tea and just hugging us after mount Fuji. It really helped that you showed your care and concern and understanding... and i was really encouraged by all your help. At that point i was so cold and frightened for everyone, and i was that close to breaking down, but you comforted me and gave me the strength to pull myself together. Thank you.
Mr koh
thanks for putting up with all of us, i know it must have been pretty stressful, but you still didnt lose your temper and all. Yeap. Thanks. oh, and for being so sporting and singing for us and all—bet none of us will ever forget.
My group, group 11 (Martin, Daryl, Desmond)
thanks for being so nice =D i had heaps of fun. You guys rocked...
the girls—xtine, eunice, zhi hui, simran, prema, michelle, jovena, Xh, charissa, gillian, audrey and especially pamela (my shopping-group-bus buddy!) and nicole and xiao xian (my roommates!!)
thanks for..being there? I really enjoyed your company, and i cant tell you how much fun you added to my trip. Xtine and euu and zhi hui, i had heaps of fun in disneyland!! to my roommates, well, rooming with you guys rocked. Those in my bus—it wasnt boring. Haha. But really...each and every one of you made my trip special. Thank you. I'm very grateful for you ppl for being there for company, for showing me the friendship which was greatly appreciated. For giving me the smiles and laughs that were so essential. i thank all of you for giving me all the fun moments. (oh, fine...intextcitation: AntZ, 2005)
and, just, thank you to...
the people i played bridge with (including jonathon, michelle, jovena, pamela, nicole, the guy from vs whose name i cant remember [sorry], aaron, samuel, jared, jastine etc etc)
v13
to those who helped me up fuji (michelle, pamela, xtine, simran, ganesh)
to those who sustained me at the top there (louis, nazri, martin, xiao xian, nicole, yvonne, mattias)
the dancers of iki masho (yijin, prema, xiao xiaon, simran, nicole)
and the special people who just...cheered me up and sustained me (aaron ng, eileen, dhevy, mattias foo, ganesh, samuel)
i miss Japan.
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