Friday, December 29, 2006
Thursday28.12.06Of tutoring woes and holiday jobs.So, with the amount of people getting holiday jobs and all, i figured i should try make some too.
I mean, i love creatinspiration, but my earnings kinda flew away when i broke my curfew last night (or this morning if you want to be technical about it). Hey, it's NOT my fault the mrt shut down early and i missed the bus out of bedok. So anyway, the cab wasn't that bad (well, bad yes, but not THAT bad) but now mum figures i've got too much pocket money (she says that every month, plus times like this) and so she's reconfiguring my monthly allowance.
DANG.
So there goes this week's earnings into funding my christmas present shopping and the like. Then mum offers me $1/chapter to just read through with daniel. I mean, i know, it's not the most (compared to the $10/h tuition jobs or the *cough* rather larger sum some *cough* OTHER people rake up giving tuition), but it's something, and in any case (as mum reminds me) he's my brother and i should be helping him ANYWAY.
And hey, it's just a couple of chapters. No commitment, a fast buck.
WHATEVER.
Five minutes to find his chinese book.
Five minutes to persuade him in my lovely big-sister i-love-you-lots-and-am-just-trying-to-help voice with the chinese-IS-actually-fun-and-i-don't-resent-being-forced-to-go-through-it-AFTER-being-cut-free-by-olevels tone, to start reading the chapter.
Five minutes to get him to pronouce one word in the title correctly. Actually he doesn't, he pronouces the rest that he said right wrongly, but i'm fed up by now and i let it go.
Another fifteen minutes to get through the first page. With a lot of "whatever"s and mumbles and uncooperative bored voices, and NOT counting all the times he got up and walked around and stuffed his mouth with chips and fidgited.
And all this while mum is sitting (with her back to us, ignoring his obvious disinterest/rudeness/fidgiting/the like) not five feet away, and so i can't yell at him and can't lose it. Not that it would make me feel better, no.
So anyway, after a painful and torturous 45minutes, we finish and i back off in relief. It's hard to tell who's happier, but it might just be me. AND i'm fuming.
So, in the end, maybe i'm not cut out for the tutoring/teaching thing, y'know? I mean, maybe you need something like patience, and a love for kids. But boy, if you think you like those darlings in the prams strolling by you, i'll loan you my brothers for two days and then you tell me again if you like kids.
*infuriated noise*
Posted by nayrakroarual at 1:29 AM
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Friday, December 22, 2006
YAY welcome to the world of online gaming XD
www.auditionsea.comhaha YAY =) the stupid com hates me but i dont care lol dom and ben are helping me set up account now YAY *beams*
haha oh phuket was fun! camp was fun! i love mel and lucinda! and dom and ben! yayyy haha you know i think if i was younger i would fall for dom and ben! well for one. falling for both would be quite stupid. but then i also think if i was younger i would fall for david! hahahaha. not like lucinda hasnt already *rolls eyes* hahahha yayyyy shall go play stupid games now YAY
Posted by nayrakroarual at 10:53 PM
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Friday22.12.06i apologise in advance for the belated christmas cards. when i tried to send them a couple of weeks back i got lost inside the post office and was unable to post them =) and then i went on holiday and so now they'll hopefully arrive before next year. Especially the later ones because i need more creatInspiration. that is, creative inspiration =( because the only bits i've gotten are used by mark or xtine for the very people i wanted to use them for *grrr* so now i have to force somemore ideas out. and i still have to write them after i make them. normally that wouldn't be so bad but it's 1.30AM now and auditionsea is 58% loading so i don't want to cancel and since i slept 1h last night you can imagine the headache i've got now.
although that's unfair, because technically last night i slept 12h, 10-10. i didn't sleep the night before last. but i don't care. i'm upset and i want to sleep and the stupid auditionc is taking eons to load.
i really am quite bad about the xmas cards, huh. haha i'm being really lazy and trying to see if i can finish them next week so i can give out at the xmas party instead. oh well. let's see how much i can do tomorrow.
oh shoot. i need to... arrgh ok i should rush it. sigh. which means i should sleep now. =) yay it's now 60%. maybe i'll just leave my com on.
yeah i think i will. k then. *yawn* seeya all!
Posted by nayrakroarual at 1:25 AM
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Saturday, December 09, 2006
Friday08.12.06There is a story of an old man who always carried
a little can of oil with him everywhere he went.
Whenever he went through a door that creaked/squeaked,
he would squirt a little oil on the hinges.
If he encountered a gate that was hard to open,
he would oil the latch.
And so the elderly man went through life,
oiling all the difficult places he went through.
People called him eccentric, strange, and crazy,
pitying him, scorning him and making fun of him.
Still, he went steadily on,
refulling his little can of oil when it was nearly empty,
lubricating all the difficult places he came across
(and some that didn't seem difficult -
a little extra oil never hurt)
and thus making it easier for all those who came after him.
In this world, there are so many lives that painfully creak and grate as they go about their daily routines. Often it seems that nothing is going right, and we all simply groan painfully under the weight of life in this world, the weight that just weighs down more and more on each person's shoulders, making it harder and harder for them to lift their heads up and continue to meet life with hope and optimism each day.
And yet, almost just as often, all these creaky lives need is a little lubricating with the oil of joy, care and hope.
Do you carry your own oil with you? Are you ready with your oil of cheerfulness, helpfulness or thoughtfulness each morning? If you offer your oil to the person painfully creaking along right next to you, it may just lubricate the entire day for him, even if it didn't seem like he was in need of it at that moment. Your oil of cheerfulness will mean more than you ever realise to someone who is downhearted. Or the oil may be a word of encouragement to a person who is full of despair. Never fail to speak that little word, to do that little something, to give your little bit of oil. Our lives may touch others' only once on the road of life, and then our paths may diverge, never to meet again.
The question is, what did that little touch mean to that person as he goes on with his life, and you with yours?
Did you cast out your own bright ray of sunshine in brave defiance of the gloomy dark enveloping so much of this world?
Posted by nayrakroarual at 12:33 AM
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Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Tuesday05.12.06well technically (as always) it's actually wednesday, that is, tomorrow. or if you look at it technically, today.
anyway, i'm tired. check this out anyway.
www.creatinspiration.wordpress.comyep, you guessed it. =)
Posted by nayrakroarual at 12:04 AM
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Saturday, December 02, 2006
Friday01.12.06you know i'm really bored when i blog 3 times in a day.
One singular sensation
Every little step she takes
One thrilling combination
Every move that she makes
One smile and suddenly nobody else will do
You know you'll never be lonely with you know who
One moment in her presence
And you can forget the rest
For the girl is second best
To none (second best to none)
Son (son)
Ooooh! Sigh! Give her your attention
Do! I! Really have to mention?
She's the One!
sigh. choir syf =) i miss those days! when we stood in those yellow and green (our sc school badge) gowns and oriana and i played chopsticks to death and five of us dressed up in the little red dresses and glittery tap-dancing-hats and we crowded into the tiny little ava room to practise. thursdays were sopranos, tuesdays were altos and soprano twos. i sang "happy birthday" for my audition piece *wince* and STILL went off tune (how pathetic can you get) and in the end i still got in. lol! we got into top 5, got gold (obviously) but didn't get the first place. which seemed ok, except that ms lim kinda walked out on us right after that =/ and i never saw her again.
one day more
another day another destiny
I did not live until today
How can I live when we are parted?
Tomorrow you'll be worlds away
And yet with you, my world has started!
One more day all on my own
Will we ever meet again?
One more day with him not caring
One more day before the storm!
The time is now, the day is here
Posted by nayrakroarual at 1:06 AM
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Friday, December 01, 2006
Friday01.12.06Lying soaked in sweat tonightYour knuckles white, you try to fightThe need for more to get you byYou've had enough you wonder whyEven now your body criesFor chemicals to blind your eyesWonder can you stay this highWhen the cells begin to die foreverLots of things
not half as scary as drink or drugs
can still get control of your life.
They can fill your time
and fill your thoughts
until you become an addict.
It's not just drugs that give you a high
and then drop you into the pits.
Hell is murky.
Posted by nayrakroarual at 10:47 AM
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Friday01.12.06it's the first of December!1. Honey soundtrack/movie
2. Centrestage soundtrack/movie
3. Step Up soundtrack/movie
4. Magic Lessons by Justine Larbalestier
5. Magic's Child by Justine Larbalestier
6. Magic or Madness by Justine Larbalestier
7. Daughters of Earth : feminist science fiction in the twentieth century (again, by Justine Larbalestier)
8. XXXXXXX =)
so, yes. my wish list. not my christmas list. my wish list in general. lol! =) although 4, 5 and 6 are rather not-sure-because-i-should-REALLY-be-reading-something-more-mature. plus i would probably not finish reading #7, and i can borrow them from the library. haha. but AHHH i want the soundtracks la! haha prema's got the step up soundtrack XD i am SO gonna get it from her hahahah yay *beams* that was a SO NOT BLATANT HINT OK.
oh! i decided to make a to do list/wish list on my blog. like a walk to remember! haha yay. i love that show/book. (just like heaven! i love that show/book too. although the book's a different title. whatever.)
yay! i'm now reading the spoilers of larbalestier's books. lol.
Posted by nayrakroarual at 12:44 AM
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Thursday30.11.06Miss you.jinglin
chien wei
melissa
minru
judy
stella
ean hong
joy
clarissa
steph chen
gerald
joel
muz
joel
mattias
boon tat
shimin
zhongyi
gosh. i seriously seriously will miss the seniors. no more jinglin to look up to during syf practice, no more minru and joy to hide from, or judy and mel to chat with, no more clarissa on the bus (well, i was scared of her anyway =P), no more muz to laugh with or joel to bridge with or boon tat and gerald to talk with or shimin and zhongyi to teach/laugh with. no more ean hong and stella and steph chen and chien wei to inspire me with their grace, effort, achievements and style/energy (respectively), and, well, yeah.
no more seniors.
well, i mean, we have seniors, still. we'll always have seniors. but no more seniors to shout at us, no more seniors to encourage us, no more seniors to inspire us. no more seniors to suffer with, groan with, complain with, crap around with, to laugh with, to cry with (well ok not cry), to copy and to work with.
no more seniors to dance with.
so there's goes the last few who i've syf-ed with. even cheryl and kyna and minli and all didn't go through that with them. it was tough, and great, and it played a huge part in making vj what it is to me, and obviously what i am today. and then there go the regale cheorographers (mostly, i mean), no longer the main group dancers, but now the almuni.
i've hated you, idolised you, copied you, learnt from you.
now, i'm gonna miss you.
thanks, vj dancers 05/06.
Posted by nayrakroarual at 12:23 AM
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