Monday, January 29, 2007

Monday
29.01.07

just came from reading chunhan's blog. I tell you, everytime i read his blog (daryl or cleaven's too, but mostly his) i feel so super inferior. My blog is full of insignificant details of my life or my thoughts, full of me being on a perpectual high, because otherwise blogging gets you depressed for some yet unknown but nevertheless true reason. But honestly. Blogging about such stuff may portray me as a bimbo (an image i often intentionally put forward because life's simpler that way) but it certainly kills less brain cells. Especially when you're trying to work up the inspiration to do TSD homework (that's overdue) and organise an OG outing you just found out you can't go for at the same time.

Which is why chunhan should go and be an author. write all those abstract stuff that we all ooh and ahh over and, sometimes, just BARELY understand. haha. what's cool is that alot of it often makes a lot of sense, but yet you don't quite know what he's trying to say. the whole meaning-of-the-text from the author and reader and text itself thing. *lang arts and mr Koh coming back* waha i miss mr koh!

i think mr koh would make the best KI teacher ever. but i do like ki classes now. sort of. apart from sleeping through a lot of it. sigh. haha see! blogging gets depressing if you're not high. i'm right. as always. MUAHAHAHA.

ok now you can tell i'm high, and i STILL haven't done my TSD homework. grrr. k no more time to wait for inspiration, i'd better go.

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Thursday, January 25, 2007

Wednesday
24.01.07
Back to the Hectic Life.

Well, today was busy.

Rushes into school, to CT venue. (yes, i arrive at school at about 7.38am each day =)
CT-PW session, sort out SLV stuff.
Break. (Fights temptation to eat on the usual dieting grounds. gets new locker lock.)
Lessons.
Break. Rushes to canteen to get food, rushes to TSD rooms to meet Johnny. Rushes back to canteen to eat food.
Lessons.
End school. Rushes to finish physics work. Passes up work and rushes to LT1 for IP3meeting.
by the way, it was gorgeous to see everyone again. in the same lt, just like in the old days. GOSH feel old =(
Rush to TSD room to meet Kyna.
Rush to meet dancers. Meets CT councillors on the way. Rushes into LT5 for CT nominees meeting.
Rushes to hand up CT-interview drawing thing. (don't ask. i had no idea what was going on.)
Rushes to mark attendence. Rushes to netball court.
Rushes to change into PE.
Rushes to catch up to netballers walking out of school for 3.2k run.
Runs 3.2km with sprints within. (time: 21++min. amanda and sam the super pros did 17.5min. sigh.)
Has training.
Runs suicide fun after training. for fun. XD
Rushes to toilet to change into leotard and tights. (skips cooling down runs)
Rushes back to slum for after-training debrief.
Rushes out of school.
Cabs to ballet. (i was TIRED. but no, i am NOT gonna blow nine bucks every week. i'll take the bus next time =( haha what a waste of money i swear.)
Ballet. Yuniko's class is like damn hard la. and super ultra incredibly fun. haha it was gorgeous seeing JingLin again. =) yay!
Takes bus home. MUM FORGOT ABOUT ME =(
Arrives home 11pm. (ballet ended at ~9pm. the powers of living far from school having ballet near school.)

welcome back to school, laura.


actually i can't believe i used to do this every wednesday. train from 2-6 (well, leave at 530) and then rush to ballet from 530-730. well, then again, i can. i lived it, after all. and this is better as ballet starts at 730, not 530. but then netball starts at 330, not 2. but it still ends at 630 so should be ok. i think. =) it was fun! i didn't really want to go for ballet today. then after training had this sudden mysterious urge to go ballet. the crazy things adrenaline rush makes you do. haha. but i'm glad i went.

i can't wait for dance tomorrow. it'll be so fun! =) oh the cny item is like damn fun too. and WAY WAY WAY too short la. and the guys are in charge of it! =D haha it's super funny. and i know alot of people think the guys are poseur and i actually thought they were damn poseur and they DO act poseur. but they're very nice, not arrogant or irritating or anything (yet =P ). Plus they ARE quite good la. especially considering they never had even formal hip hop training. all from mtv/youtube/one church performance. damn cool la. and i mean. if they weren't poseur i bet they'd have dropped outta dance by now. so yay it's quite good actually. haha. stupid thing, the whole guys-can't-join-dance thing. guys should dance too. everyone can dance. everyone SHOULD dance. because dancing is fun! hahahah. and i'm imposing my own opinions on everyone else. oops. haha.

yawn. now i should go sleep. yay.


Who'd'ya think you're kiddin'
He's the earth and heaven to you
Try to keep it hidden
Honey, we can see right through you
Girl, you can't conceal it
We know how you feel and
Who you're thinking of

No chance, no way
I won't say it, no, no

You swoon, you sigh
Why deny it, uh-oh

It's too cliche
I won't say I'm in love

I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when you start out
My head is screaming get a grip, girl
Unless you're dying to cry your heart out


Yay i like disney! haha listened to this one on the bus. almost forgot i had their album. yayyy hercules XD hahaha

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Saturday, January 20, 2007

Friday
19.01.07
Yawn.

What happens when what you love doesn't love you back?
Don't we all know what that feels like? We who love to sing and can't hold a note, adore dancing but have two left feet, dream of As and barely scrape Ds. Then there's when the guy walking by couldn't care less about you, and you just bite your lip as part of your consciousness attaches to the figure striding past, or when that girl smiles brightly at you as she heads off in the opposite direction, and you smile back while your heart cries because you know her smile was that and nothing more. There's that cca you work your ass off and drop almost everything else for, to find you didn't make the team or they just shifted training schedules to clash with the one thing you can't miss for it, or the committee which just vetos off the proposal you blew many nights pouring over.
It would certainly be nice to be loved back. Appreciation, Acknowledgement, Attention. The three A grades us humans can't live without. (Well we're talking normal here, mother Theresa doesn't really count.)

Chunhan once wrote about this X factor we can't live without, the one thing craved above food, water and riches. I know what it is, and no it doesn't apply to everyone. Only the more, shall we say, ambitious of us. Or insecure, if you like.
But then again it would still be nice if, after missing so many important practices to join them, they wouldn't shift training times to the one day you simply canNOT sacrifice.

Denise: Laura, have you ever thought about narrowing down your CCAs?
Me: Yup.
Denise: And what was your conclusion?
Me: *shrug* I dropped everything i could.

Giving up netball or dance would be like cutting off an arm or a leg. Everyone just says "CHOOSE, you HAVE to choose, you can't have the best of both worlds, you can't have everything. jack of all trades master of none, in the end you'll lose out on both." But no one gets it, it's precisely because they're so different i can't choose. Sure i am relatively better at dance. In netball everything is a fight for the last few places in the team in my case, whereas in dance i can keep up relatively comfortably (for now at least), although i'm definitely not top. Sure, they're more tsd people in netball who can empathise the situation and all and so it's kinda safer to stay with netball rather than dance where i would have to fight on my own. But in the end, there's no choice between them. Whether i'm rolling on the floor or twisting through the air, flying across the court or whizzing across the stage, it's part of who i am like walking and running and jumping is. They are so similar, and so different.


haha it's 0130 hours. no wonder i'm not making sense. =)

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Thursday, January 18, 2007

Thursday
18.01.07
SYF auditions.

dance SYF auditions today. we haven't got any minlis or ruths or wanyoongs or lydias or the like, but we've got quite a good batch, and the average skill level is definitely much higher than previous years. =) i'm really glad! we did our first warm up together as a dance group today too. minli did her killer crunches! lol i'm happy after conditioning, it makes me feel like i'm fit.

i want to run for dance exco. but i KNOW everyone's gonna think i have too many commitments and whatnots. sigh. i do NOT. i can manage, i know how to manage, and i will drop other less important stuff if need be. sigh. i dunno la. i'm not really sure what i can do - i doubt they'll think my technique's strong enough for dance coordinator, and anyway now that syf'll be over by the time the new exco's in i don't want to be dance coordinator anyway. vice-pres is a kinda no-definition job, treasurer needs to be more willing to handle money, secretary is fine but a little no-definition too, and president would be, well, the whole "two many commitments" thing. it's not like it's much less, being vice-pres or anything. oh well. let's take it when it comes. in the meantime, work hard laura! yay.

speaking of which, zaki said if we don't make ms wee (eching)'s class we shouldn't come for his. but the problem is that i can only make his class, because eching clashes with netball on fridays. i know sunday and wednesday ballet won't be enough, but can i work harder or something. =/ speaking of netball. serena and eirene, just 3 cm taller and they jump like six inches higher. i remarked this to jacq who sympathised with me and was like YA OMG haha. but when i mentioned it to hai wei, he asked, "and you are just gonna let it go?" i was stunned. i mean, i thought about working harder in netball and all, but somehow it never crossed my mind that it was possible to work to become as good, or better than them. i'd always taken it that i was inferior and would never measure up. but i wonder. i used to do assisted pull ups by myself at the machine. pushups and situps and leg crunches at home. why not jumps? i've trained flexibility, endurance (well okay that one didn't quite work out yeah), strength. sc dance demanded improvement, and we did. it's the reason i can split today. netball's been demanding improvement for ages. why shouldn't i work to meet the requirements and more? and even if i don't make the team, even if i'm still not good enough, i'll have put in my best. not held back til too late. i'll have fought for it, not just raised my hands and backed away.

gosh, sometimes you can just be so stupid, laura.

tomorrow i think i'll miss eching's class. sigh. but i REALLY really want to get into netball this year! i won't be able to next year, not with tsd A levels and helping organise dance concert (as i hope to do). plus i rediscovered the netball love that's been dying for ages now. YAY NETBALL =) go vj netball!



it's possible, it's always possible. anything's possible, everything's possible.
just work harder.

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Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Wednesday
17.01.07
of cool birthdays and life, and love.

it's a cool date. one-seven, one, seven.

speaking of which, there are approximately one-seven minutes left to the day.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LUCINDA =) I LOVE YOU!

oh yeah.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHUNHAN! =)

er. belated. but anyway i heard you got dunked that day so it's ok *beams*

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Love is merely a madness.
that's right. rosalind, As You Like It (by w*ll*am sh*kespe*re), Act 3 scene II.
Love sees with the heart and not with the mind.
Love from one side hurts, but love from both sides heals.
Love sought is good, but given unsought is better.

They do not love that do not show their love.
The course of true love never did run smooth.
When you depart from me sorrow abides, and happiness takes his leave.

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?
You fall deeper with each passing day,
But try to hide it in every possible way.
He's barely a friend, and nothing else--
That's the truth, you keep telling yourself.
You keep on saying he's just another guy,
But deep inside, you're know that's not why
You get so giddy when you meet his eyes.
A simple glance turns into a stare,
But you pretend that you don't care.
You know you two could never be,
That's why you hide it so no one can see.
How long can you last, how long pretend?
Keep lying that he's just another friend?
These, your feelings you can never show.
'Cos it'd be worse for him to know.
Your heart can't be risked over this,
So being his girl is an impossible wish...



SO

have you ever been in love?
what IS love?
how do you define being in love, or falling in love?
or having fallen in love?

funny things we talk about, in tsd. but it raises some cool questions. one person said they've been in love before, but then Lofty asked "What do you feel?"
She (obviously a she, how many guys would say so and anyway how many guys does tsd have) replied, "I don't know, you just feel..."
Interesting. now i'm doing a websearch (as can be seen from the above) about falling in love. which is NOT my tsd homework. but Lofty recommended shakespeare's sonnets (no, the above is not a sonnet, but i still thought it was kinda interesting anyway) and they ARE nice. i don't understand a lot of them though. i mean, i do like in a MIND way of understand. but i don't, well, fully understand? as in i can't relate to them. a lot of it just seems so over dramatised and cheesy. but then it's true. when you're in love, nothing else matters. (HAHA i sound like i've been in love before.) i guess i haven't, but i've fallen for someone before (i.e. infatuation, or as we tsd students pointed out, what our parents call teenage puppy love) and it's somewhat similar.
which brings me to my point that i think romeo and juliet weren't in true love, they just fell for each other, but like infatuation rather than true love. i've read my mum's parenting books, and there's this quote that goes: You may recognise it as just puppy love, but it is very real to the puppies. (it's something about how to react to BGR and like how not to over- whatever about such stuff.) it sure feels damn real when you're in that kinda state.
she walks into the room and you know she's
uncommonly rare, very unique, peripatetic, poetic and chic.
haha. so much stuff written on love. how much of it real? how much of it fed to us by the movies? how much of it given by our parents, built into our nature or nurtured from young?
when did you learn what it is, this whole "like-like", "love" idea? even the little kids in kindergarden can tease each other. how in the world did they find out the whole BGR concept?
what's it like, being in love? wait, is the whole thing just the social construct, and we don't really experience all those hot fluffy emotions they write about? or it's really like that, that one person can be your whole world and nothing else really matters, fei4 qin3 wang4 shi2, because that person is enough for you?

i guess we'll never know until we've tumbled into it, huh? like bungy jumping. no one can describe it to you - they can try, but you won't understand til you've leaped off that tiny little platform way up there.

so, class dismissed. homework #1: What Is Theatre essay, to be handed up next monday.
homework #2: fall in love by next next monday.


Love is the most beautiful of dreams and the worst of nightmares.

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Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Wednesday
10.01.07


there are a thousand and one words to name it, and a million and two phrases to describe it. yet, nothing ever comes quite close enough to the experience. all the words hit the little red rings around the bullseye, but they never quite strike.

well, until you experience it, anyway.

and you know, some people just never do.



lucky shit.

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Monday, January 08, 2007

Monday
08.01.07
Sea Regatta & Suntec Mass Dance.

for now?

let's just say it was fun. =)

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Sunday, January 07, 2007

Saturday
06.01.07
Orientation continued.

tomorrow's david's birthday! *beams* and i haven't got a card! oh no! =/ oh well

so anyway, orientation was great. a lot of it was a tad sian cos i knew stuff like the mass dances and cheers already, and in any case i always found it boring to learn dances slowly. but the mass dance ICs and the red shirts went super ultra fast anyway, so it was ok. although i think the 07 batch isn't really very familiar with the mass dances and cheers. except like Yo VJC. lol.

second day was cool, we had water games and all. after which i skipped half of tribal to go eat ice cream with bryan from cathigh not vs because both of us were kinda sian. LOL. yay he's nice =) haha wet games had stuff like water balloon dodgeball in which i accidentally smashed one on chia weei =P instead of the other team, and then there was the apple a day game, and the shampoo game which was cool although we ran out of shampoo. haha. yay! dry games on day1 were fun too. or was it day2? the chair racing game, the wet towel captains ball, etc. yay!

oh haha day1 during lunch it was really funny! lol
me: "hey jialin, you're in interact?"
jialin: "yeah! how'd you know?"
me: *wiggles eyebrows* "i'm pyschic."
jialin: "right..."
laura: *turns to ogl beside jialin (eric)* "hey what's your name?"
jialin: "guess! haha"
eric: "yeah, pyschic, pyschic..."
me: *hesitates as afraid to say wrong name* "err... does it start with E?"
jialin: *SUPER SHOCKED LOOK* "OMG how did you know?!"
me: "muahahahhaa XD"
(i had heard someone talking to jialin about an interact meeting, and eric had mentioned his name to us before)

oh my class is quite nice. hello 07s43! =) i talked to some of the girls, and i have like shakura and shreya who are really nice and martin and zonghe who are also very nice and jared who is a v13 person which is totally necessary =) and so yeah in all my class is really really nice! the only bad thing is that we're in phoenix! from aquila (1st) to phoenix (last) ! *is very sad* plus after working so hard for the cheerleading comp and sports day and everything, and earning the star, and now i'm not in aquila anymore! i'm really upset, dunno what to do. i mean, it would be traitor-ous to go to aquila and all during comps and sports day etc, but i hate the idea of cheering for phoenix! it's like so weird and everything too =( sigh *upset* plus phoenix cheerleading is like =( and i join alot of house stuff (floorball, bowling, sports day, you name it) so like my house is really important to me! sigh. i mean not that i know everybody in the house and all (imagined community, like a nation. haha thanks mr yang =) but i do know quite a few people cos of house stuff and YA it's just sad la. sigh the dilemma continues...

third day was the funnest. i can't exactly remember what we did besides that last clean-the-floor-with-your-backside game we played (that was super frustrating but very very cool) and learning I Want You, but it was super ultra fun. oh and creon WON! haha lydia was super funny i tell you she was a born house comm la. totally brought the house down. haha this year's orientation skits and videos SERIOUSLY rock. then after that we waited for the ogls and played bridge and then cheat in the meantime. it was super funny. shanti can't cheat and bryan likes picking up cards LOL =) yay and then we went for dinner! we had a tough time deciding where to go, airport-suntec, until finally eric broke the tie and we got going. then as we walked out we almost went back to square 1 as some ogls tried to persuade our ogls to crash suntec to join tj. but in the end we still went airport. OH haha on the way to the busstop (rounding the corner to the busstop actually) we came up with the novabelle-haiwei scandal! hahahahhaha it was super funny la we had such a great time teasing them XD hahaha and then we sang "creon, creon, walking up the stairs" and "walking down the stairs" and "waiting for the bus" LOL =) yay! on the bus mansoor told a few racist jokes *bsh* LOL and then we played lame games like 12345whatsthis and 3 numbers. 3numbers was really funny because NO ONE got it for a long time except eric who guessed it like after 3 turns. then it was super fun because he would always get it right and everyone else would go "HUH HUH??" hahahahaha *evil laugh* muahahhahahha haha oh then jialin got it too =) smart girl! yay! oh and stella was SUPER funny when she got it LOL she went like "the answer is 6, no, 7!" hahahaha she's the first person i know who can guess it right by herself (without someone else getting it wrong first). then we played Colour and 2bottles over dinner, and talked about random stuff like the restaurant bill calculation riddle and the mosquito coil riddle. I LOVE CALLIXTO! =) our ogls rock too haha gosh it was really really fun every single person in my crewlet is so nice! yayyyy =)

after dinner we played truth or dare which was actually quite dumb (i'm sorry but ToD can only be played at certain stages and this kinda stage is SERIOUSLY not fun, especially if a- there are not enough truth questions to ask and b- we are joining another crewlet whom we don't know and so are not game enough to do dares in front of, etc.) and polar bear which was also dumb. then we walked off because the security guard told us our group was too big =P hahaha and apparently there was an announcement about us =/ but i don't know about that cos i didn't hear it. then we thought about going to coffee bean to jiedong (chill. said by novabelle lol) but because quite a few of us couldn't stay long and anyway coffee bean was really crowded we ended up jiedong-ing at the top of the escalator down to the mrt while waiting for novabelle and rachel to come out of the toilet. lol.

then we went to jiedong at the station and counted the stops to our various destinations. haha. then we "creon creon walking down the train" (or rather i did, the rest claimed not to know me) haha =) but it was fun! we parted ways at tanah merah, and then novabelle, dianne, rachel, bryan, eric and i took towards boonlay. we talked with james the thaddeus ogl (hunter in the polar bear game XD haha i didnt realise he was an ogl) and timothy the creon ogl who had been in charge of the videos and all. =)

so overall, it was super ultra fun. i LOVE my crewlet =) yayyyy

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Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Wednesday
03.01.07
First Day of Orientation1, again.

O1 07. well it wasn't as bad as it could be, definitely. Or as great as it could be. But then, i'm not an ogl. lol.

we're moving in, we're moving out,
OGLs, let's here you shout.

"i feel like this is a repeat telecast." - koganti

i disagree - to me, this is like the sequel to a bestseller, trying to imitate the first's greatness but coming nowhere close.

catch the spirit we create,
today's the day we dominate.

actually, i think this is actually going better than last year's orientation went, as far as first days go. but then last year i was an ogl, and it was somehow easier. my ogl instinct keeps trying to take over, and a couple of times the highness let's a bit slip through and i just know i'll pay for it dearly if i don't stop. like at mass dance, when i totally blew my normal-scgs-vjc-freshman image. well, i love mass dance. sigh. haha. it didn't help the ogl thing when our only acting ogl abandoned us to deal with admin stuff. it wasn't his fault, the other 2/3 ogls were at r-papers. and the roving ogl was scared and went off too. sigh. so i decided to try to teach them bloop and all. it just seemed weird, and i couldn't really take charge (or at least i tried not too) because i was just another freshman. but we could just scarcely sit around and stare at each other and our fingernails could we.

say it loud, say it proud,
OGLs, OGLs

we have 4 og cheers. the first one is a song cheer, so by nature it can't be that loud without us losing the tune and our voices, but it's not that bad altogether. the second is a chinese cheer, which is good except a lot of us (including me) don't know the words as a result and resort to shouting nonsense which throws those around us off (in my case) or just being silent and halfhearted (in most other cases). the third is quite cool, it's some rhythm stamping cheer, but very few can remember it so it comes out like crap. the fourth is nice too, it's the stamp-stamp-clap style cheer, but the words are a tad complicated and as a result is not remembered too. even echoed. rameses and ayden and iago have nice cheers. icarus might have nice cheers (after hearing nazri i changed my mind and decided they were quite good) but i can't hear what they're saying. orpheus has a nice clapping cheer (the one mel taught us in thailand) and our clan, the patriots, have this hilarious clan cheer which we all don't know except icarus. lol. oh, except that it's to the tune of 'deck the halls' and we turn in circles. =)

well, it could really be worse. haha i'm glad we went for dinner, it was fun and everything after that. too bad i'm gonna have to miss og dinner tomorrow night *upset* because i've got a youth comm meeting. sigh. i want to quit, but at the moment i KNOW it's just cos i want to go for the dinner, which is a stupid lazy reason.

ehhhhh.... OGLs!

class of 2005 VIP. well.

i can tolerate change, just don't change the things i love best about VJ and my life.

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Monday, January 01, 2007

Monday
01.01.07
Bungy jumping.

there's the ride to the top. no matter how you do it, whether you're slowly drawn up from sea level in an iron cage or you take a tourbus up the mountain to the bridge over the river, you feel your heart pumping faster and faster within you.
as you near the top, you feel the adrenaline within you, fear mixed with excitement, anticipation, and then more fear.
as you hop out to the ledge, your heart within you beats yet faster, and even louder than before, until it is a roaring in your ears, and you can feel each opening and closing of the heart valves reverberate through your chest.

then you inch toward the edge, and (you know you shouldn't, but you just HAVE to) look down. horror of horrors, you never thought fifty metres was that far. just like looking into a deep fish pond just gives the impression that it is actually quite shallow, looking down from a bungy ledge gives the impression that it is actually quite deep. you appreciate every one of the fifty-two metres separating you from the ground, and then some.

one, two, three. but you don't jump. because you can't, you just can't. the ledge beneath you is so comfortingly solid, the wrap around your legs so tight you can't move a muscle.

you realise, to your horror, that you can't just step off the ledge. forget about the fancy jump you planned to do on the way up, you can't even take the easy way out and step off. because the bungy rope is wrapped so tightly about both your legs, you have to move both at once, to HOP off. you must convince you entire body that you are going to HOP off that tiny ledge from such an impossibly high height and plummet down toward your friends and family, impossibly far below.

you shake your head, and your fingers grip the railings beside the ledge until your knuckles turn white. outwardly you don't move, but inwardly you're trembling so hard you're surprised you can still breathe from all the muscle spasms. you close your eyes for a second, and let out a long breath in an attempt to calm down. then you open your eyes again, take a deep breath, and

that last moment before you jump is your undoing. once again, your courage fails and you just can't do it. you smile wryly, thinking of the black boulderactive shirt you're wearing (defy gravity, it arrogantly proclaims) and the white nike socks on your feet (the just do it buried way beneath the layers of bungy rope). below, your friends have finished laughing among themselves about your first couple of almost-jumps and are once again voicing out encouragement and not-quite- so-encouraging calls (there's no no-jumping refund, laura) while your brothers make snide remarks (COWARD, JIE!!) or simply stare up in fear for your life (that would be david).

and at the moment you least expect it (ironic, coming from you, but then everything in a bungy jump is ironic) you gather all the insanity you ever possessed and make the tiniest hop possible off the edge.

for a split second you seem to simply hang in the air, like a cartoon character. or at least that's the sensation you feel, because you know you are falling, you can see the ground rising up. and despite the tough wrap around your legs that almost stops the blood flow, you feel nothing holding you up and in that one terrible moment the horrible reality of what you have just done and are now doing floods into your mind and you SCREAM.

and continue screaming as gravity and your nervous system take over and you feel the wind rushing past your face as you plummet toward the ground.

for many moments it all just seems to go faster and faster (probably helped by the fact that in addition to your decreasing altitude you are turning head over heels as the rope around your ankle does it's job) and yet, not touching the ground (although what would you know, you've wrapped you hands around your head in a vain attempt to protect it, and your hairdo) you seem to slow, although the wind is still roaring in your ears.

you heave in a shuddering breath and curl your body up to make sure you really don't hit the ground (just in case) and to quit the pounding in your head from all the blood rushing down to it and also to get more sense of where you are as you are spinning wildly.

then you see the rope above you curling up and you realise that the nightmare has only just begun. the rope was so elastic you didn't even feel the bounce, but now you realise why you seemed to be slowing as you turn your attention back to the ground. and the ground starts to rush up faster once again and once again you scream as you head toward the earth at a ferocious velocity.



bottom line.

you HAVE to try it.

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Monday
01.01.07
*is amused at friendster*

what a way to spend the new year, stuck at home with daniel, playing audition and watching adventures of the gummi bears. they say what you do on new year's day (or is it your birthday =/ i forget) is what you'll do for the rest of the year! hm. i don't really want to do this for the rest of 2007.

but anyway, i've realised that my friendster birthday is 31st dec 1987. which is quite cool, 'cos i do actually think a birthday like that is cool. but then it's rather amusing to get sms-es and etc from people who think it's my birthday today/yesterday. haha thanks anyway, though. =) lol

so anyway, bottom line, i changed it. haha.

auditionSEA is fun! haha i hope i'm leveling soon. but the stupid com keeps logging me off audition. the chances i can get in when i try are like 1/5, and the chances of me staying in are maybe 1/5 of that, and then the chances of me staying in to play long enough are 1/2. like, GRRRR. haha but it's fun! so nevermind. even though i'm wasting my life (and my new year's day) away. haha. ok so i should actually get someone to go out with. let's see. night at the museum is nice (barring the fact that i've already seen it) haha hmmm. oh well.

oh i'm installing maple story now! hahaha oh actually it installed already. cool. 'cos mum has this "we should become more in" idea. she made daniel create an asiasoft passport and install maple (while at the same time banning me from audition -_- wow) and offered to buy an x-box (which daniel and david, and naturally me, actually turned down). you know, we have GOT to be the only family who can afford it, has 2 normal young boys and has a mum who OFFERS to buy x-box, games and etc, and yet REFUSES such an offer. well, it makes sense actually, mum was like "but no war games" and we all went =.= then don't bother with the xbox LOL mum's funny. i think this is the first time she realised that daniel and david actually already play war games (well, ok battle, but whatever) - i mean, which part of lego bionicle and star wars looks peaceful and lovely to you? hahahaha. but to that end, at least she seems willing to get another modem. i absolutely REFUSE to let an xbox or ps2/3 get into my house without at least being able to retain my computer rights by owning a modem. *beams*

ok! back to audition XD

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