Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Tuesday27.01.07reflections and random spoutings.okay maybe i won't drop KI. i kinda like GP, actually, and the teacher's super nice but the whole class is just so quiet (besides amoudtha and hianhuat). i was like WHERE ARE MARTIN AND ZONGHE AND JARED AND MICHELLE AND PAMELA AND MARK AND YIRUI AND DARREN AND AARON AND AARON AND CHUNHAN AND ERIC AND RACHEL AND okay you get the idea right. haha. although honestly im not too sure about the KI teachers =P but honestly GP isn't MUCH less boring with a quiet class -_- and the subject content really IS the boring part of LA. athough i DID quite like skills in LA (despite the part where i completely failed it, of course). hm. i mean i think all the thinking about truth and everything is really really interesting, i just keep falling asleep and not paying attention. my bad. aiyah i'm really quite don't-care now. except the whole IS (independent study) problem as well. it'll be the same time as TSD prelims and (hopefully) dance concert prep next year and i shall SO totally die, especially if i am by some freak chance in netball school team as well. although in all honesty i just want to get in this year. but wah i love the netballers. =( okay this is getting confusing.
another thing. LIT. i'm quite willing to give up 2 of my double breaks to crash lit tutorials because it really rocks quite a bit but i'm not sure the lit students/teachers will quite appreciate that. i'm just living in fear of the whole "taking away time/attention" etc thing taking over them. hopefully they're okay with it? i just love the lit, and it kinda rocks not having to commit to doing the essays =P especially not on top of TSD stuff. that's what i envision lit to be - passion, love, exploration of texts and all. it's everything that i love about it now, and nothing that i hate (especially the doing-and-then-failing work part). =/ hm.
ECONS. means i can't crash econs lectures i guess. well i'm sure it's still okay? =P i don't know. AIYOH life is too confusing. haha lets not worry so much about it laura.
on the good side, Jane, Stephany, Johnny and Ying's IS prelims are now over! =) yay relaxation. only Ahnaf (who is basically jus performance so it's okay) and Kyna (who doesn't really need us haha) left =) yay!
oh michelle came up with nicknames for our class. mine's Yay -_- haha imagine going, "YAY!" when you want to get my attention -_-"""""" hahah oh Diane's is Sarca and May's is Stic! haha so cute right. Michelle's is Sexy, after the mortal. Jiaxin's is, of course, Fanji. HAHA. we keep imposing these things on her, like the whole fan club thing (she is currently president of 3 fan clubs, all of which she refuses to acknowledge, and as such are incredibly inactive XD). haha actually only michelle's a truly active president. but oh well it's just funny. i love michelle! i shall be so sad when she changes class la. =(! well she'll always be an honourary member of s43 =) yay! ohoh speaking of michelle i bumped into michelle from v13 today! miss her lots! i realised i shall miss all the michelles (Zhuang, Lim and, err, Sexy Angel) alot!! =( so sad la. they're all so nice. haha i should name my daughter michelle next time too so she'll be nice too! to quote Ying, "Oh, but that's silly!" (cues christine) and now the music plays. hahaha. i love doing lights and sound with christine. it just rocks having her in TSD la. (lights and sounds! XD haha okay)
okay time to sleep! ^^ good night world!
the queerest of the queer...the lamest of the lame...the coolest of the cool...the strangest of the strange...
Posted by nayrakroarual at 10:53 PM
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Sunday, February 25, 2007
Saturday
24.02.07
Sometimesthere's only so far you can pretend,
only so near before the road end.
there's only so much you can take,
only so little that have it made.
there's only so great you can be,
only so small a vision to see.
impossible is nothing,
but there's only so often
you realise everything.
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yay profound post! =D (haha okay i just spoilt it didn't i =P) anyway NOW PONDER IT =D hahahahaha yayy i feel so accomplished now. despite everything.
good night! =)
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rejection
disappointment
loneliness
hope
loss
hurt
enthusiam
pretence
struggle
monologue! monologue!
angst, EMOTION, silioquay
meaning, meaning...
Posted by nayrakroarual at 12:08 AM
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Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Tuesday20.02.07Random Poetry Spoutings XDFeel a twinge in your chest,
The place your heart's supposed to be.
Feel a beating through your veins,
Pumping through your body -
Faster -
Higher -
Stronger -
Or weaker.
A familiar figure sauntering past
Your mouth goes dry.
Tight chest, forgotten breath
Double take, triple take
Great. Did you hear that?
*smash*
Posted by nayrakroarual at 11:48 PM
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Thursday, February 15, 2007
Wednesday14.02.07Valentine's Day & Sports Day woes. oh. not vday woes. valentine's day, and the woes of sports day =)hey, i seem to be a bit onto the whole "woes" thing these few days. LOL i'd better quit it. it's not a good attitude. it IS kinda depressing to look at the sports day sign-ups, but well what's new. Vday was quite nice, very touched by xtine's and michelle's (both michelle from 05v13 and 07s43) and geri's presents =) , thank you so much! mark and chunhan too =) yayy thank you! and err the person who gave me that red paper. i can't remember who at the moment =P oh and i came to the conclusion my mortal's really nice =) yayyy thanks too, mortal! yay. and to all the rest who gave me stuff =) xx nicole prema wansing yeeling may jiaxin seren diane amoudtha yirui audrey and anyone else i forgot at this moment. not that i don't love you or appreciate your friendship =) you know i do ;) lol but yeah it's kinda late la. tired already. i ponned physics today and ended up sleeping in the tsd room. now i know where to go to crash if i really need. ended up being shut-up crew as well since i was sleeping right outside the door where people were supposed to shut up. the whole cny-house-comm thing is kinda sucky too but ah well what's new. i almost feel like quitting house comm, but i know it's just one of my sour-grapes-depressed-emo-angsty moods i'm in and anyway quitting would be just so fickle and uncommitted which i really can't stand. you already committed to something, give your best and see it through man. =) and yay phoenix cheerleading is good! so yay =)
*wonders how long i have been blogging for*
My Love is of a birth as rare As 'tis for object strange and high:It was begotten by despair Upon Impossibility. Magnanimous Despair alone. Could show me so divine a thing,Where feeble Hope could ne'r have flownBut vainly flapt its Tinsel Wing. And yet I quickly might arrive Where my extended Soul is fixt, But Fate does Iron wedges drive, And alwaies crouds it self betwixt. For Fate with jealous Eye does see. Two perfect Loves; nor lets them close: Their union would her ruine be, And her Tyrannick pow'r depose. And therefore her Decrees of Steel Us as the distant Poles have plac'd, (Though Loves whole World on us doth wheel)Not by themselves to be embrac'd. Unless the giddy Heaven fall, And Earth some new Convulsion tear;And, us to joyn, the World should all Be cramp'd into a Planisphere.As Lines so Loves Oblique may well Themselves in every Angle greet: But ours so truly Paralel, Though infinite can never meet.Therefore the Love which us doth bind, But Fate so enviously debarrs, Is the Conjunction of the Mind,And Opposition of the Stars.The Definition of Love by Andrew Marvell
Posted by nayrakroarual at 12:03 AM
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Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Tuesday13.02.07House Comm & Music Fest woes.So i just screwed up my house comm interview. i seriously don't think i'll get in now man =( but i really really REALLY REALLY want to! it'd be so cool la. i mean phoenix just rocks! haha speaking of which, i just spent the last 2 hours trying to get people to sign up. it's quite scary hahaha cos i realised sms doesnt work so i called a few and kept nudging people online. the sign up list has rocketed, partly due to the fact that the house captains are sending out mass sms-es to get people to sign up, telling them today's the last day. yirui said cheryl told him minimum he gets 5 people to sign up. haha i know it was cheryl cos i memorised her number ages ago. i can't remember why now. anyway yes. i'm quite glad clayton didn't ask me to, i'd be either more stressed or less stressed (how ironic). as it is i just blew my sms quota. haha. and i bet my class people are totally sick of the sports day idea now. haha but it's okay! sports day is gonna be damn fun no matter what and we'll all have fun! yay.
PHOENIX!
where?
PHOENIX!
where?
PHOENIX!
UP THERE!haha i completely love cheers. after being upset about the interview long enough to ruin the rest of my evening until i got home (1030pm) and taken a bath (i swear baths have a soothing effect. the whole crying with all the water around thing completely works la.), i felt better and started getting everyone i knew from phoenix to sign up. haha i really really hope they do! =) MASS SIGN UP yayyyy!
music fest is NOT coming along nicely. i don't understand alot of the moves and all and i really don't think we look good together. not to mention the rest of the dance groups who cheated and didn't follow the not-all-dancers quota thing. sour grapes, i know, but it was really upsetting to choose the group and i'm just upset. haha. well we'll persevere! zi high then everyone else will hype up too! yay.
oh vday! im SO SORRY people im too lazy to bake cookies now. HAHA. next year perhaps! lol. in the mean time, you know i love you! *hug*
sweet dreams! yayyyy *beams*
Posted by nayrakroarual at 12:00 AM
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Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Tuesday06.02.07B2B JTS and random thoughts.just found out the CNY rehearsal tomorrow got cancelled. damn. anyway, JTS was super fun. it occurred to me that the main reason, in fact almost the sole reason i want to join is also the reason i am not joining. it's the seniors. i love the odac seniors. as in they're just damn nice. and every time i see them as a group i'll be impressed at their bonded-ness and all and just wowed. haha. which is dumb because in the end the seniors are leaving really really soon and it's my peers i'll be working with. and if i'm doing it for the people and not the work itself, and the people leave, then i doubt i'd continue either. well, i would if i had joined because that would have meant i was willing to commit and was enthusiastic and passionate about it. i suppose it seems that i'm a very fickleminded uncommitted person, joining and dropping CCAs like nothing. but in the end i really love what i do and am passionate about what i want to do and that's why i make the choice to try and balance everything because i love everything. well, KI is kinda an exception. not that i'd love GP, so what the heck.
once again, a profound quote from chunhan's blog:
life that i know is a series of four-dimensional dots.sometimes you don't know where it's taking youbut it all adds up to the big picturea big picture of frustrating regrets and realisations.some dots in life are hard to come bybut since we'll never know which ones they are until they're over,treat everyone of them as though they're stars,banished into our four-dimensional plane.that way, it'll always look bright.just like the sky tonight.it just occurred to me i'm highly plagiarizing it. i meant to take just the last couple of lines, but it just seems to fit so nicely. got me thinking about how much i actually take a lot of people for granted. not just my friends, but my enemies as well. i think they'll always be there, as if they're the unchangeables of life (that was a quote from Artemis Fowl =D) but actually, they aren't, are they. they're all dots in life, everyone and everything is a tiny little dot in life that just flashes by quickly, often too small, such that i don't take appropriate notice, or appearing to stark against a white background, such that i spend to much time focusing on that tiny little fleck and don't see the big picture. i need to start treating everyone like stars, whether or not i like them, because only that way will life always look bright. if you treat those you aren't on that great terms with like shadows, they'll form large rainclouds over your day and no matter how much you pretend it doesn't matter, they will in the end darken your day. why should you ruin your own day by putting rainclouds in it? put stars in your own sky and it'll always be bright.
just like the sky tonight.okay actually the sky's quite dark la but i mean it was a nice effect right =) hahahha
Posted by nayrakroarual at 12:13 AM
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