Thursday, April 30, 2009
Stupid NTU only
emailed me TODAY about my writing test and interview tomorrow. So I had to blow of ACS pri last minute when I read the email at 1am.
Posted by nayrakroarual at 1:25 AM
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Monday, April 27, 2009
I haven't been blogging much lately. I guess haven't really felt there's much to say. Or maybe nothing's been happening. (Or too much. Haha. No, not too much..)
I HATE the person who decided that skinny is the new beautiful. It takes all the fun out of eating. Ugh. =( Now when I eat I'm miserable. When I don't eat I'm also miserable. When I'm not exercising I'm miserable.. Booooo. And the worse thing is, I completely subscribe to chocolate therapy. So, when I'm miserable, I eat chocolate... it's a vicious cycle.
Made some pretty cards today. =)
Posted by nayrakroarual at 8:27 PM
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Monday, April 20, 2009
And I learned what is obvious to a child. That life is simply a collection of little lives, each lived one day at a time. That each day should be spent finding beauty in flowers and poetry and talking to animals. That a day spent with dreaming and sunsets and refreshing breezes cannot be bettered. But most of all, I learned that life is about sitting on benches next to ancient creeks with my hand on her knee and sometimes, on good days, for falling in love.Found this on Shreya's blog. Sounds like one of Hai Wei's movie lines. Haha.
Idiot guy went and got his plan expired.
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This was the worst week in a long, long time.
Really glad it's over.
Please, God, let next week be better =/
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Thursday, April 16, 2009
Scheduled outage at 2:00AM PDT on Thursday (4/16)!
So, I have to finish this in about an hour.
Haha. No problems there.
Ballet today was good. I was a lot weaker than previous lessons, though. Not sure whether it was cos I've been sick this week, but I was totally dying by the end of barre in the INTER class. =( And my pirouettes seem to be getting worse. I'm doing something totally wrong, I can feel it, I just can't seem to diagnose and cure it.
Possibly tiredness. But I dunno, I feel like I was fighting a psychological battle. (and losing, obviously.)
RAWR! So annoying. I should have the doubles down easy by now. Boooooo.
Oh but Ms Sharon said she'll do Sparkle on Friday! AIEEEEE *swoons* yayyyy Sparkle! Haha Sparkle is like the REASON I joined DSI :D :D :D yayyyyy!
Originally I wasn't gonna go ballet on fri, cos of BS, but I'm gonna go from 6-8 and chiong to BS. It's at Eug's house, so I shouldn't be more than half an hour late =) yay! *happy happy*
And apparently there's ballet at 830pm tomorrow! *very pissed off* I totally totally want to go but I've worship prac (AGAIN!) so I'm gonna miss it! AND I'm gonna miss Sat's class cos of the VDA bbq. ARRGH. Having the VDA bbq on worship leading week just killed the saturday =/.
Next week I'm gonna miss Thursday too. :( Gonna have to work extra hard on my own! Rawrrr. Shall ask Ms Sharon if I can come on Monday to make up class.
Booo. I hate missing class. But what to do, BS and VDA take priority =/ sigh!
SO GLAD I caught up with Jan last Sunday! Haha. Yay! And watching 17again with MichZ! =D double yayy. Haha. (: (: (:
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Monday, April 13, 2009
Hmmm.
Today was not the best day of my life.
Completely screwed up the NTU interview. Absolutely completely.
Nose is killing me. Now have a headache and, according to Mum, a fever, too.
VJ dance rehearsal was just costume changes. So I travelled down for nothing.
But
Thank you God for not letting me sneeze or sniff for the ten minutes I was in the interview room! haha was praying like crazy that I would be okay for the interview, and I was. Except for completely screwing up. But that was my fault haha.
HaiWei called from army. Only talked for about 5 minutes though.
That's about it.
Ugh. Need to sleep. Please, please, please don't let me screw up tomorrow's interview, God...
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My nose decided to run a marathon =( At the rate it's training, it'll get the finisher shirt in no time at all...
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Friday, April 10, 2009
Love,
Love changes everything:
Hands and faces,
Earth and sky.
Love,
Love changes everything:
How you live and
How you die.
Love
Will turn your world around,
And that world
Will last for ever.
Yes, Love,
Love changes everything,
Brings you glory,
Brings you shame.
Nothing in the
World will ever
Be the same.
When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter, "Simon son of John, do you truly love me more than these?"
"Yes, Lord," he said, "you know that I love you."
Jesus said, "Feed my lambs."
Again Jesus said, "Simon son of John, do you truly love me?"
He answered, "Yes, Lord, you know that I love you."
Jesus said, "Take care of my sheep."
The third time he said to him, "Simon son of John, do you love me?"
Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, "Do you love me?" He said, "Lord, you know all things; you know that I love you."
Jesus said, "Feed my sheep."
"Do you truly love me more than these?"What are
these that keep you from loving Jesus? What is it that stops you - mentally, emotionally, intellectually - from giving him the 1st priority in your life?
"Yes, Lord, you know that I love you."It's not a new thing. Jesus
knows that Simon Peter love
d him. It is not a new thing, but it is a
renewal of a love that got cold, that faded away. So many of us have been Christians for a very, very long time. Often as long as we have been born - Sunday School, Church camps, Youth camps, Christian schools, you name it. But the first love - that fire and passion that we felt during a Youth Camp, or a special Easter or Christmas service, when we first gave our lives to God - that first love has faded, over the years. We let it fade, let it become routine, mechanical - and so we lose that love.
"Feed my lambs.""Do you love me?" is a question that not only demands an answer, but also our actions. Faith without works is dead - not that we can earn salvation by work, but that if we intellectually acknowledge God's sovereignty yet do nothing about it in practicality, our faith is worth very little.
"Feed my lambs."We are
not owners of God's sheep! Pastors, Elders, Deacons, Cell Group Leaders, Youth Workers - you are NOT owners of God's sheep. Therefore
handle with care. For we are accountable to God for the welfare of his sheep - his sheep, which he loves.
The third time he said to him, "Simon son of John, do you love me?"3 times. Not merely because Simon Peter had denied him 3 times - as if it was a mere legality, 3 cancellations of 3 sins! -.- No, this repeated question is asked to make sure we know what we are being asked, and we
think before answering.
Too often we answer without thinking, without considering the entire meaning of our words, and their implication. "Do you love me?" demands an answer and requires our actions, but most of all it necessitates a
soul-searching response within us.
Being questioned, being doubted can bring hurt into our hearts. But sometimes, it's necessary to be questioned so that we will check - Am I serious? Do I really mean what I say?
Off
Into the world we go,
Planning futures,
Shaping years.
Love,
Bursts in, and suddenly
All our wisdom
Disappears.
Love
Makes fools of everyone:
All the rules
We make are broken.
Yes, Love,
Love changes everyone.
Live or perish
In its flame.
Love will never,Never let youBe the same.
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Thursday, April 09, 2009
Met Hui Shi and Li-Shan for the first time in AGES today. I'm so so glad! I'm really sorry I haven't kept in touch with them more. Especially Li-Shan, she's really grounded, you can tell. Like Phoe, except that I treasure Phoe a lot now, not just after we drifted then realised. Not that I didn't already know Li-Shan's an awesome friend. But still. I am sorry we drifted.
Wow! Things have like really changed. I mean. Practically Hui Shi's whole family is overseas. Even Li-Shan wants to go overseas.
That I totally didn't expect. Somehow Hui Shi I expected, although I was still really sad to hear it. But Li-Shan too? :( Man. Well, she's still praying about it. I think it's selfish of me to hope she stays, but.. oh well.
Some things never change, though. Like Hui Shi said I'm still clumsy and forgetful, as always. Forgetful I'm well aware of, I didn't realise I'm clumsy =/ Although today I
was super klutzy. Kept dropping and knocking over and tripping over stuff. Haha. And Hui Shi's as opiniated as always. And Li-Shan's as sensitive and nice as always. Haha. Like as Hui Shi was like slamming me for being late she'd go, "Oh, but we were catching up and all so it's alright in the end" and when Hui Shi was talking about how forgetful and clumsy and everything I am, as always, she interrupted saying how yeah but she's sure I retained my good points as well... Haha. I really love Li-Shan, she always trys to see the good in everything, and say it. I'm glad she didn't change in that way, either.
And Hui Shi's so funny! Haha. I've missed her strong, quick responses and opinions and her cutting remarks haha. She's fierce and yet comfortable in herself, clear on who she is and what she's doing... Yeah. Man. I missed them.
Saw Megan too! Haha. Amazing how they've all changed, sort of. But only saw her for a minute, didn't really get to catch up =( although Hui Shi sorta filled us in on what they're up to.
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Tuitioning Alissa was fun. Primary school maths is SO AWESOME! Haha. I remembering not knowing how to calculate powers in the PSLE. There was this multiple choice question.. 3^2 x 2^3 = ? And I got it wrong. Haha. That's all I remember. But yeah oh well.
Then went for dinner with HaiWei! Again. At this rate we are going to get sick of each other. Lol. Honestly. But anyway yeah. It was fun! Even though we spent like 40minutes walking around trying to find somewhere to eat, until we were both quite hungry haha. And then when he walked me home my mum invited him in for cheesecake! HA I
told him the cheesecake I made was nice lor! Still don't believe. Haha. Just nice Dan and Dave came to eat it at the same time. And they BOTH liked it! Double HA. lol.
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No calls this week =( sad! I shall have to call Henry Park and SCGS and ACS pri on sat. I
really want to teach at ACS pri and SCGS, but Mum wants me to check out Henry Park in case David gets into the Gifted Prog (which I personally think is highly likely) and switches there. Especially since Henry Park is one of those special sports focus school thingys, and their speciality is badminton which is great for Dave. So hm. Oh well. I miss the kids. Saw Elis from 2H and another guy plus some other Fairsians at Clementi just now. Haha. =)
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Wednesday, April 08, 2009
It's getting to the point where I'm alternately really happy and interested, or irritated and touchy when I hear her name.
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Sunday, April 05, 2009
It's funny to see 2 blogs on my dashboard now, instead of 3. Haha.
Anyway! Oral invigilating was so boring today. I felt so sad for the kids. It was like stuffy and hot and they all didn't bring books or anything so they were bored to tears.
I was bored, and I already had them, and my bsf homework, to keep me occupied.
But anyway, the boredom was totally mutual. The teachers were very bored, and rather worried at the state of their oral exams. (I wonder if I was that bad when I took orals. I'd always thought I did rather well. =/ ) But yeah. Note to self/students: Do not ramble on and on without stopping about the picture during the Teacher Conversation. The teachers get bored and miserable when it takes longer than they want it to. Haha.
The teachers were all really nice though. Mdm Chong was a bit upset that I sent the students before she could take a break, I think Ms Sheena and Ms Cheryl and Ms Dana were a little, too. =/ My bad, I didn't realise they hadn't had their breaks when I sent the students. But I mean, their exams were supposed to start at 1040, which meant I sent them at 1030 (which I did). And they'd already been there since before 0945. Poor kids. Poor teachers. Poor me.
Somehow when I remember my own oral exams it was more..structured. Haha. And there were air-con waiting rooms. :P I think that's what made the difference. HAHA.
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Friday, April 03, 2009
*groans*
ugh, my eyes feel sandpapered. KNEW i shoulda slept earlier. Luckily I made it down by 6.40am today, so no fit from David. :p Poor kid. I always make him late.
But sleep can always be gotten. It's the BODYACHE rawrrrrrrrr my butt, thighs (outer inner all around -.-), back, even my arms ache! Gosh. Lol. But class was awesome. =) I love that kinda feeling. Haha.
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I don't understand why you would continue if you didn't like it. I know you think I don't understand. MAKE me understand, then. Personally, I think you love it. And that's fine, but I wish you'd stop pretending you didn't. Or at least, if I'm wrong, just quit and find something else to make you feel worthwhile.
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Wednesday, April 01, 2009
Grammar Rock: NounsWell every person you can know,
And every place that you can go,
And any thing that you can show,
You know they're nouns!
A noun's a special kind of word,
It's any name you ever heard.
I find it quite interesting,
A noun's a person, place or thing.
Oh I took a train, took a train,
To another state.
The flora and the fauna that I saw
were really great.
But when I saw some bandits chasing the train,
I was wishing I was back home again.
I took a train, took a train,
To another state.
Well every person you can know...{Like a bandit or an engineer.}
And every place that you can go...{Like a state or a home.}
And any thing that you can show...{Like animals and plants or a train.}
You know they're nouns
You know they're nouns, oh!
Mrs. Jones is a lady on Hudson Street.
She sent her dog to bark at my brother and me.
We gave her dog a big fat bone,
And now he barks at Mrs. Jones.
She's a lady who lives on Hudson Street.
Well every person you can know...{Mrs. Jones, a lady or a brother.}
And every place that you can go...{Like a street or a corner.}
And anything that you can show...{Like a dog or a bone.}
Well you know they're nouns
You know they're nouns, oh!
A noun's a special kind of word,
It's any name you ever heard.
I find it quite interesting,
A noun's a person, place or thing.
A noun is a person, place or thing.
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