Saturday, March 25, 2006
Saturday25.03.2006since you can't fly, climb! [quote: louis]
because humans can't fly. [quote: nazri]
defy gravity! boulderactive'06.
crying is a kind of comfort. a way of relieving yourself, of washing the dust of stress and worries from your heart. after you cry, you become stronger, more assured, more pure, less weighed down, like the air after a spring shower. fresher, readier to face the world again.
really?
that was my chinese textbook speaking. anyway, i don't know. i don't totally agree, but there is some truth in the statement, a special ring that resounds as you read it. if so, i wish i could. i wanna just throw myself into...i don't know, can't really think of anyone's arms i'd like to be in, but i can't cry properly into my pillow/at home. haha maybe the class sofa. yeah. anyway, i wish i could just cry and cry and cry and just let everything... out. but now my eyes are dry, there's nothing, no way of letting go. it's like a dull, exhausted dismay settled over my heart, clouding my mind, twisting my body in helpless sorrow. and i'm just too tired to care. anymore.
thought of the moment: one day my prince will come =)
(okay that is so random after all that moody stuff but it just is lolllll at least i'm honest hahahhahha)
Posted by nayrakroarual at 11:54 PM
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Thursday25.03.2006since you can't fly, climb! [quote: louis]
because humans can't fly. [quote: nazri]
defy gravity! boulderactive'06.
crying is a kind of comfort. a way of relieving yourself, of washing the dust of stress and worries from your heart. after you cry, you become stronger, more assured, more pure, less weighed down, like the air after a spring shower. fresher, readier to face the world again.
really?
that was my chinese textbook speaking. anyway, i don't know. i don't totally agree, but there is some truth in the statement, a special ring that resounds as you read it. if so, i wish i could. i wanna just throw myself into...i don't know, can't really think of anyone's arms i'd like to be in, but i can't cry properly into my pillow/at home. haha maybe the class sofa. yeah. anyway, i wish i could just cry and cry and cry and just let everything... out. but now my eyes are dry, there's nothing, no way of letting go. it's like a dull, exhausted dismay settled over my heart, clouding my mind, twisting my body in helpless sorrow. and i'm just too tired to care. anymore.
thought of the moment: one day my prince will come =)
(okay that is so random after all that moody stuff but it just is lolllll at least i'm honest hahahhahha)
Posted by nayrakroarual at 11:54 PM
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Saturday25.03.2006okay i know i'm being really moody and down and whatnot. haha nazri decided i was pms-ing on thursday -_- and then he and mark were like wondering whether the P stood for pre or post. (they decided on post, in which case it can't be true NO DON'T ASK HOW I KNOW -.- haha) anyway yeah think i was acting bitchy. gave it to the dancers lol. but i'm really encouraged by prema could tell she's been practicing at home, i really really love her attitude to bits WHY ISN'T ANYONE ELSE SO HARDWORKING haha i was so pissed off when i was correcting shakura and her and realised that deejee and reema were just watching and smiling and looking bored etc. NOT SAY THEY VERY GOOD OSO la haha i know i was ignoring althea and beau who weren't practicing as much either but HEY they can actually afford to be more slack, they actually look good okay.
another thing. YOU. you, and this is SO not a good thing that you are being flamed now. you don't REALLY want me to reveal your identity and i SO haven't done this for a long time, to ANYONE and omg it isn't even the same person as last time can. YOU. irritating INSENSITIVE omg. i know, i'm fat. no need to tell me. yes, hinting at it is considered telling 'cos i'm a girl with an oversensitive spot in this particular area seeing how i am surrounded with bone-thin people being a dancer/gymnast for over ten years. okay, so the school uniform isn't exactly what you call flattering, yes. i KNOW it's kinda starchy, so perhaps i look fatter. i took a shirt S. i mean, this really isn't the first competition shirt either you or i have gotten, we BOTH know they tend to be really big and too revealing. so i took an S. in any case i like tight fitting shirts,.so i don't mind if it's not loose. then you suggested i get an M. okay, you were being nice and considerate and sparing me the embarrassment of having to go back and change the shirt. fine. i gave you a 'blank' stare (which actually meant i know what i'm doing thank you) and ignored the comment. so you repeated it. i was STARING at you, for goodness sake, didn't it occur to you that i actually heard you? it wasn't like i was talking to anyone else, i was LOOKING at you man. lol. anyway, you repeated it. again. again. again. and i'm not exaggerating (okay maybe i am a bit but really i was quite cross) and FINALLY some smart girl told you to your face perhaps there are some things that you shouldn't try to advise a girl about. especially continually. it really wouldn't have been so bad if you had taken the hint the first time and dropped the subject. yes, i know i was standing next to three really petite thin girls, one of whom is so hot you are continuously flirting with her. now, i can't dictate your thoughts and i don't want to. but it would be WONDERFUL should you learn tact and sensitivity. (by the way, i wanted to go HA in your face when i came out of the toilet and the S-size was loose for me. but that would be me being immature and petty so no, didn't happen. haha.)
Posted by nayrakroarual at 11:28 PM
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Thursday, March 23, 2006
Wednesday22.03.2006random thought: it's like time's stopped for me, ever since i lost my watch. haha.today.almost --ALMOST-- broke down. in netball. don't know what's wrong with me. i was just feeling lousy, after school and all, and i shouldn't have let it affect my playing. but i was already feeling so inferior, so horrible, so excluded, and well it didn't really help that i was in farhanah glanies and june's group. i was defending june, and she didn't wait for me to do three-feet defence before throwing at all. not that i remembered to do three-feet. i couldn't tap any balls even after ages, ESPECIALLY after ages 'cos i just got more and more tiredand demoralised. or was it the other way around?reaction slowed, pace dropped. june was getting tired too, but it didnt really help alot because i was even more shacked. then i just wasn't close enough, and june kept catching and throwing back the ball before i could even gather myself to defend again. too fast. in a game situation i have to keep defending and recovering and defending again, but in a game the person in the game doesn't keep getting the ball every 3 seconds. it didn't help that june didn't wait to set up. i know she wasn't supposed to. it wasn't her fault. don't blame it on her, laura. but she didn't wait for my three-feet at all, when she is supposed to pause abit first, and my falling back before driving again. farhanah and glanies just kept shouting at me. captain, vice-captain, year-one-who-has-taken-my-place.three feet, laura. what's wrong with you. move quicker, laura. react sooner, laura. anticipate earlier, laura. push yourself, laura. three feet, laura. closer, laura. left, no, right, there!, laura. right right right MOVE right, laura. left, right, there --no there-- front, back, stick closer, anticipate sooner, reach more, try harder, recover faster, DO THE THREE-FEET!what's wrong with you?you, or me?
Posted by nayrakroarual at 10:09 PM
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Monday, March 20, 2006
Monday20.03.2006haha sports heats after school today. andrea jumps FAR man. so does amelia. haha and out of the 8 LJ finalists 5 were from aquila!! haha congrats....
Long Jump girls:
Andrea, 06v13 (1st)
Amelia, 06v11 (2nd)
Simran, 05v13 (3rd)
Shot Put girls:
Audrey, 05v12 (1st)
Marjorie, 05v12 (7th)
oh okay. me, OH
FIVEVEEONE
THREE! (2nd) =D
400m guys:
Nazri, 05v13 (1st in his heat)
Alvin, 06v11 (2nd in his heat, to nazri)
Nick, 05v11 (3rd in his heat, to nazri and alvin)
Leqiao, 05v11 (1st in his heat)
Samuel, 05v13 (2nd in his heat, to leqiao)
Lemuel, 06v12 (3rd in his heat, to leqiao and samuel)
Zhaijuan, 06v13 (4th in his heat, to leqiao samuel & lemuel)
Posted by nayrakroarual at 10:05 PM
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Thursday, March 16, 2006
Thursday
16.03.2006
let's not talk about netball camp. it had some really good memories, and i'll write them down sometime. but for now, i'd rather not think about it.
ESPECIALLY the last game.
anyhow, today we had dance! haha DRAGGED myself to school at eight for zaaki's practice. i was late (well, mum and papa are outta town, i had to go myself) but zaaki was later anyway. OMG i love absolutely LOVE zaaki's cheorography!!!! he totally rocks la. a lot of people didn't come, though, and missed a lot. he's gonna start blocking on saturday... i'd better teach the ips. no one else came, except prema! and if they don't turn up tomorrow, too bad man they can find someone else to teach them. sheesh. haha. but it was fun, learning all the steps together and everything. zaaki was really funny, all of a sudden he just went "oh, hi, kyna!" in the middle. *bsh* 'cos he just realised that kyna's in dance this year (she was in ijtp--he teaches dance there--). haha and he was asking me about my cousin michelle (whose name he still couldn't remember lol) and was like telling everyone how i have a lookalike in tj =P so embarrassing haha but it was quite funny haha. then went through eching's item-- zaaki's blocking for it-- then went to class for lunch. kogi was there, and jastine joined us when he finally woke up. haha i can't BELIEVE i poked my head into oneone and said hi to leon and didnt realise that it was jastine sleeping on their couch la. rarrrr. haha then went for lunch with jastine and yirui at funan, then went to bishan to buy stuff with yirui. it was very fun haha and between use we nearly bought the whole shop but *ahemm* decided not to splurge. haha. then KABSHHHH i got lost on the way home. ended up at jurong, walked forever to the mrt and then took it back. haha so malu!!!!
haha tomorrow there's dance!! EVERYONE PLEASE PLEASE COME WATCH THE DANCE CONCERT IT WILL ROCK COMPLETELY!!!! =D
Posted by nayrakroarual at 7:27 PM
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Saturday, March 11, 2006
Saturday11.03.2006haha rock on ROCKED! haha okay it's a rock climbing competition, so it would have anyway, but yeah, it was fun! =D
haha i got kinda lost cos i forgot how to get to yishun and couldn't remember who was joining today. so in the end just sms-ed aaron and nazri (who =( did not reply) haha cos i was under the impression xx only joined under-seventeen and gerry under-twenty. haha FELT SO CHEATED when i finally got there and realised could have called to so many for help. haha anyway aaron was nice he DID manage to get me there by phone-instruction. so yeah. haha.
SAFRA YISHUN BOULDERING GYM IS ULTRA COOL. let me say that again.
SAFRA YISHUN BOULDERING GYM IS ULTRA COOL.
i mean, it has TWO levels (okay so does climbasia) but it's AIRCONDITIONED and the way up to the second level is a SLOPING BOULDERING AREA which is like cool beyond cool. haha. although waiting in Isolation in there was kind of pressurising and scary. and very cold--got kinda numb and had to keep stretching and jumping. haha we played a couple of games of bridge before i had to go. randall and audrey and winfred and all are quite pro players-- was VERY happy. i am SO tired of playing with unpro people haha. sorry, no offence to anyone. i know im not that good either, but at least the game flowed nicely and smoothly. haha i won a 3-bid with audrey just before going out, so i was quite high which was very good haha. and then went out, climbed-- it was easier than i had thought it would be. i had expected to drop by third tile -- during the carnival last year i couldn't even get past the easiest routes -- but i made it up to the fifth panel or so, right before the red triangle. was quite happy about it, even though i could have gotten alot higher if i had done that part properly. haha well that's the point right-- if you're pro enough, then you can, if not, you train harder. it's not about what you can accomplish if you have unlimited tries etc, its about what you could accomplish in the given time. that's what i learnt at all the dance auditions, too. haha.
oh and christine completely rocks! (besides the fact that rocks tend to be hard and small) haha thanks so much for the encouragement! *hug* oh and mark and chunhan and aaron and winfred and yixiong and gerry and nazri and kai-lyn too =D it really helped...
* as a sidenote, the rock on shirt is really cool too but it (like many rockclimbing and dance shirts) is super revealing can wahlao xiaoxian might as well have not worn a shirt, as she pointed out to us lol.
i was actually quite surprised i managed to stay happy throughout. was really scared before, but after the climb was just happy. xx looked like really disappointed and everything, even though she got higher than me and all. so did the guys, etc. haha and ESPECIALLY after last night. i went to check the dance notice board. i didn't get in for hiphop. WTH. it wouldn't be so bad if like shakura and prema hadn't gotten in. i KNOW im being egoistic and bad, no need to tell me. but, am i really that bad? or what, was it because, i don't know, you can join a maximum of 5 dances? or because i put that i wasn't free mon-wed and all the hiphop practices are then? well, anyway, i'm now in j1, ip and zaki's item (which are all kinda by default) and e ching's item and jazz item. =D the good thing is i think jazz IS kinda more my style, i don't really know. and at least nothing is interferring with netball camp now. i would be REALLY hard put to choose. plus the hiphop practices are during training slots. yup. but i was still rather upset. to tell the truth. to quote: "feeling lousy and shit." heh.
Posted by nayrakroarual at 10:37 PM
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Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Tuesday07.03.06Here's the chance of life, get ready, set, fly high.
Above the fear of your mind, go for it.
It's hit or miss, too late for you to quit.
You gotta show 'em how bad you really want this, so...Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem.
You gotta work to get the cream
on you're hopes you must lean,
From your fears, you have to wean yourself.
It's all or nothing, give your everything...
Are what you believe, you got to bring the heat.
Set the pace, competition take the lead.
This is it, all eyes on you.
So stay on point and prove,
that you deserve whats long overdue.
Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem.
You gotta work to get the cream
on you're hopes you must lean,
From your fears, you have to wean yourself.
It's all or nothing, give your everything...
My heart is still recovering,
From the heartbreak of another kind,
I'm still drying my tears.
Getting over my own fears in my life.
So I wanna make sure this time that I'm strong enough,
To give it my all...
Live your dreams, it's not as hard as it may seem.You gotta work to get the creamon you're hopes you must lean,From your fears, you have to wean yourself.It's all or nothing, give your everything...You gotta live your dreams,
So don't you be afraid.
Just set the pace, and take the lead,
It's your time to shine. please believe...
every line is so applicable, so close to my heart.
don't let today's disappointments overshadow tomorrow's dreams. [quote: Farhanah, netball captain]
i'm going to WORK for this. i'm not sure why, and i sure don't know how, but i DO know i want this badly, very badly, almost more than i've wanted anything in my life before.
Live your dreams...
Posted by nayrakroarual at 10:14 PM
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Sunday, March 05, 2006
Sunday05.03.06in case you're wondering, yes, im posting less. determination redefined--everything i have goes to two things now.
i have never wanted this more, never been this determined.
and, heartfelt condolescences. and to all out there, a guy, a girl, results, NOTHING is worth that.
Posted by nayrakroarual at 11:39 PM
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