Friday, February 19, 2010
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Posted by nayrakroarual at 12:59 AM
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Wednesday, February 17, 2010
They say, "Wait."
Sometimes it feels like there's a sell-by date that everyone's gearing towards. We avoid talking about it and no one ever actually calls it that, but is that not what it is? Now we've entered uni, the pressure just keeps building on. Find a partner, get attached, get attached.
And then you graduate and start working, and there's a different pressure - get married, get married.
Yet, everyone still says, Wait. You're still young. You're not sure of what you want. Wait. Wait.
I will be still and know you are God.
Posted by nayrakroarual at 11:14 AM
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Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Sometimes you think, "Wow, this person is really nice." And you think you're gonna be really good friends with the person.
But sometimes you realise that you can't trust that person. Not that the person is deceptive or scheming or whatever. But simply that you cannot trust that person to remain your friend.
And that sucks.
Posted by nayrakroarual at 2:02 AM
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Monday, February 15, 2010
So Valentine's Day was pretty good, aside from the fact that everyone is so absolutely needlessly annoyingly promiscuous.
There this one scene when Emma Roberts talks to her grandparents about the fact that she and her boyfriend were planning to have sex during their lunch break that Valentine's Day. And she says something about how she had hoped that this would forge this special bond between them so that when they both go off to different colleges their relationship will last.
And I'm just sitting there going $%#&! because if she's giving her virginity away so easily that how the heck does she even expect him to see it as anything special ANYWAY? -.- And she also realises that this is bullshit, because not 60 seconds later she goes,
"It's not I'm gonna sleep with one person for the rest of my life, right? I mean, who does that?"
(Err, people who actually plan to get MARRIED and be FAITHFUL, maybe? Perhaps someone who's saving themselves for that special Someone, who would be willing to wait to be sure because that Person is worth it?)
Outside of underscoring the idea that being single is a problem, and helping the government promote sex (pre-marital, extra-marital, who cares, right), the movie was pretty good. Lots of big names, short, superficial subplots (not to mention short, superficial relationships), mushy quotes, "awww" moments and a ridiculously adorable little boy in love - hey, what worked for Love Actually and He's Just Not That Into You should work for Valentine's Day, right?
Kinda made me feel like I was alone, though, in terms of value system. Not sure how to explain it, but where I come from a kiss is special (and anything onward from there too, heh). If you kiss someone, it's something special, not just anybody. If you have sex with someone, it's something special. Not just..another boyfriend or something. It's special. =/
Oh, and I suppose you could just french your boyfriend in front of the TV camera (Taylor Swift played the Typical American Bimbo role really well, btw), because of course you're so taken over by the fact that he's hot and he's crazy about you (which, by the way, are just about the only reasons you can come up with about why you like him) that you would just ignore the rest of the world and get lost locking lips with him whenever you meet.
Haha. And someday when I'm having a really bad day I'm going to just go to a club and get dead drunk and make out with a random stranger. And forget all of this nonsense.
Posted by nayrakroarual at 12:33 PM
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Thursday, February 11, 2010
2."Not sure if I'll go for it la."
-raises brows-
"Well...not sure if I'll even get it."
-laughs- "Aiyah..." (If you don't get it, nobody will. -.-)
1."It's for the whole of June, right?"
"Yeap!"
"But aren't you doing an internship these holidays?"
"Yeah, well, but I calculated and it fits
just nice, 3 weeks before and 3 weeks after, so I can do both."
"Oh, okay." (But this means that..)
"But it would mean that - "
"... You cannot ... " (...be around in July.)
"...Yeah."
-nods- -smiles- ( =/ )
=]
Posted by nayrakroarual at 1:41 PM
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Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Rushing and racing and running in circles
Moving so fast I'm forgetting my purpose
Blur of the traffic is sending me spinning
Getting nowhere
My head and my heart are colliding chaotic
Pace of the world I just wish I could stop it
Try to appear like I've got it together
I'm falling apart
Save me
Somebody take my hand and lead meSlow me down
Don't let love pass me by
Just show me how
Cause I'm ready to fall
Slow me down
Don't let me live a lie
Before my life flies by
I need you to slow me down
Sometimes I fear that I might disappear
In the blur of fast forward I falter again
Forgetting to breathe
I need to sleep
I'm getting nowhere
All that I've missed I see in the reflection
Pass me while I wasn't paying attention
Tired of rushing, racing and running
I'm falling apart
Tell me
Oh won't you take my hand and lead me
Slow me down
Don't let love pass me by
Just show me how
Cause I'm ready to fall
Slow me down
Don't let me live a lie
Before my life flies by
I need you to slow me down
Just show me
I need you to slow me down
Slow me down
Slow me down
The noise of the world is getting me caught up
Chasing the clock and I wish I could stop it
Just need to breathe
Somebody please
Slow me down
Posted by nayrakroarual at 12:01 AM
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Monday, February 08, 2010
Everyone acts in a certain way so as to be perceived in a certain way. You do it, I do it, we all do it, whether we like it or not.
But some people act more than others. Some people always say things that they do not mean, or pretend to be one way when they are actually really something else. Often, people act as if they are knowledgeable even though they are not, or they pretend to be indifferent even though they are quite interested. Very often, people act as if they are happy even though they are not, or they pretend to like something even though they are actually neutral towards it.
They do this for many reasons, the most common of which is because it is useful to them to be perceived as such. Teachers put up great acts of knowledge, confidence and control, even though they might be nearly clueless and shaking in their sensible court shoes. Likewise, chairpersons and other leaders often act as though they are confident and happy, regardless of whether they actually are, in order to carry out their duties more effectively.
Very often, people act in certain ways so as to please others.
But sometimes, people pretend to be stupid even though they are not, or they pretend to be ignorant even though they are not. There are people - less common, but not rare - who pretend to be uncertain and unconfident even though they are in fact quite in control of the situation.
I met someone like that today. It's interesting because I know - and he knows - and all his friends know - that he is actually putting up a front. But he still puts it up, so that people who do not actually know him will perceive him a certain way.
It got me thinking a lot about the nature of truth and pretense. Is it truthful if I know, my friends know, I know they know and they know I know they know that I am putting up an act? How much of what I say do I actually mean? How much of what I do do I actually believe in? I don't believe that we can be 100% unpretentious, because it is unavoidable that we adapt our behaviour to fit situations and people.
But the question is, how much of it is truthful?
Posted by nayrakroarual at 9:16 AM
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Thursday, February 04, 2010
It's probably a bad thing that I mostly blog during class. Lol.
Virtue and Leadership is a really interesting module, though. But I think that a lot of the issues that we discuss link back to a few key problems, which arise because people are unpredictable and diverse and they do lots of stupid things.
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But still. It's pretty interesting. Turning out to be one of my favourite modules, actually, which is unexpected and quite cool. =)
Posted by nayrakroarual at 10:58 AM
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Tuesday, February 02, 2010
It's been a while since I was here.
A while, mostly because I've been really busy.
Not that I'm not busy at the moment. Seeing as how I'm in Irony class, listening to Andrea and Yongming's presentation.
By the way, it's pretty good. I think they put a lot of work into it.
Head feels like it's swimming in a sea of fog. Maybe I should skip BSF tonight.
Posted by nayrakroarual at 2:37 PM
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