Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Tuesday
28.11.06
all i want for christmas. is you!anyway, we iceskated today. as a result, i now have a blister on my right ankle. it's been forever since i skated, i never realised.
too bad. haha it was fun! there was a lot of falling down:
michelle screams and falls. laura falls over michelle because laura was holding michelle (trying) and vice versa, and thus was unable to keep balance too.
chunhan semi-falls trying to do some leg-switch-half-turn pro move.
michelle falls. this time laura does not fall.
laura cuts into lane of young girl/boy and nearly makes them fall.
nazri falls trying to outrace laura who is trying to outrace chunhan. HA.
laura makes relatively old woman fall by gliding into her while watching tiny little girl do cute solo routine. old woman is VERY angry. laura is sorry.
chunhan falls trying to do new double-skate stop. (chunhan has mastered half-turn-leg-switch pro move and is trying to learn new pro move from new skater guys with cool skates who just enter ring.)
laura falls trying to learn half-turn-leg-switch pro move. laura is able to spin one whole round but is unable to spin half round and stop (as in the hald-turn-leg-switch pro move).
laura crashes into mark, michelle and nazri. laura and michelle fall down.
tada! --------- (*note that charissa is not in the falling sequence. all bow down to her ability to not fall down! go char XD)
oh about the post title. i just read xtine and mark's blog. X) haha yay! shall blatantly list for those who don't already have something in mind/know what i'd like which im not listing.
which is nearly everybody. haha! nevermind =) blatant materialism!
oh. my mum's pms-ing. =(! sigh. so maybe i wont get to go althea's house tmr. which is partly my fault cos i should have asked her earlier (i forgot) and i should have just packed and gotten ready instead of telling her i needed to know whether i could go NOW so that i could pack. *wince* that part was REALLY my fault.
ok out of point. by sigh! i want to go! =( haha and i told them i'd go! oh no. oh well.
back to the christmas list! haha hm.
ok i want something handmade. or personally made because computer doesnt really count as handmade. haha yeah! and personal. =) haha yay! so i'll like keep it and really really really treasure it no matter what. MAKE ME SOMETHING =D haha those are the best kind of gifts cos you really see the thought and effort that went into it and it makes you feel special and all.
well, i mean for me. maybe most people actually don't see it that way.
OH to all those who heard my trudi canavan craze phase. which lasted like less than a week. i'd still read her books, being fantasy which i usually love and fiction which i TOTALLY love XD, but i'm over her man! why is it all the good authors like their characters to a) jump into bed with each other b) jump into bed with each other of the same sex?! i mean. just because you're a profound writer doesn't mean you have to be slashy. GO JODI PICOULT! tamora pierce i still love 'cos her stories are just everything i love in a book (as in the storyline. the telling could be a bit more profound i guess.) but in any case i've already read all her books at least thrice.
ok so that wasn't in line with the christmas thing either. but sigh! i'm sad la. i thought trudi canavan sounded really good! and all! but in the end she just paired off the stupid heroine with the guy who like totally changed character. not enough build up, obviously. i mean, i hated tamora pierce for dragging thayet in when i wanted alanna to wed jonathon, but then when the story unfolded i loved it. see! it's possible to do that kind of thing. and there wasn't closure for trudi canavan's trilogy. like, it's so obvious a trilogy is too short for her, her style is like tamora pierce's and pierce does it in quartets. guy gavriel kay, now that is a different story. GOSH his books rock la! well at least one of his trilogies do. i haven't read any of his other books. lol. there's a difference between left-hanging and no-closure! oh jeffrey archer's not bad too i guess. i'm just kinda bored of his stuff, and i can't stand all the action and politics and rarrrr go home la! yay.
although jodi picoult's My Sister's Keeper is like GORGEOUS, but i didnt feel like crying buckets over her other books they seemed emotionally exhausting and repetitive (a bit. all the court stuffs you see) so i didn't pursue it.
gosh. i SO need to read more. time to consult zhihui.
i need new earphones! but anyway my father's getting for me tmr. i think. lol. actually yeah a handmade card/present/whatever is good enough. although saying that is a bit =/ haha cos no one's obliged to give anything anyway. someone hint to my parent's though, please. i want godiva chocolate, i do NOT want a christian/study help book, and i want more hours in a day so i can learn to figure skate.
did anyone watch Ice Princess? =D
as christine put it, there's always the XXX that i can't tell. (or something like that.)
which is true. haha. but not like it'll happen. why do i bother? LOL
oh it's wednesday already. blogging's tiring i tell you. im like dying now. how can this be? im the cca girl who's SUPPOSED to thrive on packed schedules!! sheesh. ok maybe it's the lack of sleep. *wince* gnight!
Posted by nayrakroarual at 12:43 AM
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Monday, November 20, 2006
Monday20.11.06ok it's 5 minutes left to the day so i really must type fast.
i'm kinda wishing this day'd just skip by, actually. i want it to be any other tuesday, just not my birthday, because birthdays are supposed to be special and this one is gonna suck as a birthday, even though it completely rocks as a normal day.
2 minutes left!
haha i'm kinda dreading it. if it were just any other day, i could just chat and all, and not bother, but i cant. just cos it's my BIRTHDAY. i don't dare. and another thing, deep inside i'm just worried no one will remember. no sms-es, nothing. like last year, overseas. my parents didn't even say anything til 11 oclock that night, and then i got a present from my mum! =) while my brothers were asleep. it was quite nice, but it kinda felt bad the whole day. you know like how you feel upset noone's paying attention to you, but then you know that it's not like they're need to pay extra attention to you anyway, and you know you're just being self-pitiful and centred and all, and so you feel even worse cos you're feeling guilty for that? well, yeah. like that.
haha. hm. it appears i read the clock wrong so i actually have 7 minutes left. well it's not my fault the digital screen refuses to display part of the second last number. so i have to guess which part of the hour it is. lol.
oh i just finished The Magicians' Guild! it's SUPER gorgeous haha trudi canavan is my new fav author la! well, her and jodi picoult. although i still love tamora pierce and guy gavriel kay the best, but yeah! haha i'm so happy with my new books (bought them with almost-expired kino vouchers yest =) haha yay! i cried BUCKETS over jodi picoult's My Sister's Keeper yesterday. well, today morning - i finished it around 2am. then i couldn't sleep cos i was sniffing so hard. lol! and then i finished The Magicians' Guild today and i'm just DYING to get my hands on The Novice and The High Lord. yay! haha =)
oh omg haha it's 12! oO k i kinda forgot cos i was obsessing over Trudi Canavan again and rereading the book haha but yeah! =) yay mark's the first haha eh thanks! =D
Posted by nayrakroarual at 11:52 PM
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Saturday, November 18, 2006
Saturday18.11.06Angst.disclaimer: this is just another batch of teenage angst. if you don't wish for it, then just spare yourself and skip the whole thing.i was full of ideas for a nice happy post. but you know what, i don't feel like it anymore. nevermind that i've got a wonderful life, lots of nice things, all the stuff that i know i should be really alot more grateful of. trained from the cradle to count my blessings i was, first by my parents then by myself. so now, my mind just automatically adds up all the good stuff i should be happy and thankful and basically grateful and all about and slams it in my face.
funny how counting your blessings can sometimes make you feel alot worse. it deprives you of the right to feel unhappy, yet does nothing to dispell the unhappiness. in fact, it kinda adds to it by adding guilt and the i'm-an-ungrateful-horrible-selfish-brat thing to it.
i often snap when people are being exclusive, or maybe when i imagine them to be, or then i put on fake smiles (smiles, because a fake smile never sticks and you have to keep supplying them to keep the impression real), at the same time backing off and throwing up ice walls around me. and afterward, or sometimes even as i retreat into my own solitary world, i'll beat myself and scream at myself for being stupid and selfish and self-absorbed. because it's always so small and insignificant in the end, or i could have reacted some other way instead of being dumb. and in the end, also because i know that it's not really them being exclusive, it's me excluding myself because i'm feeling left out, lonely, insecure. i love groups, i hate groups, especially when i'm not a part of them. whether i diss them as being terrible not-my-type or cling around trying to fit in, does it really matter? in the end, i don't, can't, won't.
goodness, i think i once declared those words banned from my dictionary.
and now, it's one of those stupid self-absorbed arrogant times again. you think the whole world should revolve around you, don't you laura, just wish the whole world would stop for your wishes, just for a day.
hell, dream on.
it might even just be me moulding myself out, making sure i never really fit in, get in, whatever. after all, have i ever really? what would i be if i did? i kind of fear that me, 'cos it wouldn't be the me i am now, not that i really like being me now. but i feel it, whenever i'm close to fitting in somewhere, or getting close to someone, i just pull away, change so that i don't, can't fit in, whatever. sure, i get shut out, but how much of that is me? goodness, i don't know. now, here comes the self pity again. wow. wonderful isn't it.
gosh. i completely hate you. me. i. whoever that is.
and in the end, i don't even need the world to stop for me. just wish that maybe i could catch up with the world, spin with it a few rounds, actually become part of it. i just wish i could stop feeling shut out, stop feeling left out, stop feeling lonely, stop feeling stupid. wish i could have someone who really cares, and who'd continue caring, and who i knew would still care no matter how self-absorbed, selfish, horrible, stupid, irritating i am. who loves me, and i don't mean romantically.
yeah, now you heard the truly confused stupid crazy idiot beneath the layers of mad rushes to ccas, chionged schoolwork, forced enthusiasm and conterfeit smiles. this is one of the times that crazy person chained down there just bursts through the covers, while the usual image you see tries desperately to keep it down, and of course fails. and of course actually hiddenly (as some people would point out) wants to fail because it actually does in the end. doesn't it. and then when all the layers have settled back on later, hopes that the world hasn't seen, or hasn't taken offence, and tries to hide any trace of it ever happening.
sometimes it just sucks so much, this being able to think. but in the end (again, how many times has she used the phrase now, goodness) it's the heart, isn't it? or rather the area in the mind where feeling really comes from, because your heart is just this muscle and even when you get a transplant you still feel fine, feeling being not the physical one but the emotional bit. when you wish with all your heart, you really wish with all your mind. dead metaphors direct your feeling to the heart, the centre of your body, but it isn't really, is it. well, no matter. that's not the point here, or at least it wasn't. in the end, i wish with all my mind, heart, whatever, that i COULDN'T feel, couldn't think. didn't exist. they say God respects us too much to just annihilate us and not let us suffer the consequences of our actions, which is why our souls last on past physical mortality. i wish it weren't so. i'd have committed suicide ages ago in that case.
one last, stupid thing. it's so easy to fake it, to conceal it, whatever you're really feeling inside. despite everything, we're all born actors really, we can all do it if we wish. all the more, all the MORE easier with msn and sms, you don't even have to bother with disguising anything, just chatter away and throw in hahas and =)s and other happy stuff and there you have it, a readymade happy image. lol. =D yeah, sure! see? 2 taps on the keypad, it's done, with maybe just a couple more for authencity if you're picky. the real problem is convincing your own mind that you want to hide it. because once you really want to, you can.
so, you see? i don't want to. *SLAM* there! teenage angst! i don't care, just live with it. yeah. GO AWAY. GOOD. that's better.
*slam*
everyone has the right to cry themselves to sleep in peace.
Posted by nayrakroarual at 11:58 PM
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Thursday, November 16, 2006
Wednesday15.11.06la la la.7 things that scare me:
1. being alone (i get really freaked out in lifts sometimes)
2. being left out, forgotten, etc etc
3. the dark
4. cockroaches, caterpillars, etc etc
5. other creepy crawlies that are not insects like #4, e.g. worms, spiders
6. heights
7. my handphone going out of battery
7 fav songs at the moment:
1. live your dreams (save the last dance soundtrack)
2. little superhero girl (corrine may, safe in a crazy world)
3. when there was me and you (vanessa hudgens, high school musical)
4. i don't feel like dancing (scissors sisters) - although i actually feel like dancing now. or at least i'm looking forward to dance tmr. haha. but i like the song. yay! i want more eching songs =) shall source for them! yay
5. one love (Blue. i think.)
6. salvation is here (hillsongs, God He Reigns)
7. i'm yours (jason mraz)
7 people i fancy at the moment:
1. the guy from step up. channing tatum or something.
2. the black guy from high school musical! haha =)
3. NOT TELLING XD
4.
5.
6.
7.
7 things i say most:
1. haha
2. yay
3. lol (-_- this is taking a trend, you realise? lol)
4. but
5. ya
6. that's not the point
7. ohhhhhh (knowing sound you make when you understand or agree with something/pretend to understand or agree with something)
7 things i like/love most:
1. my nails! (ok technically there're 20 of them but YA they're nice *beams*)
2. my new SUPER LOOSE 3/4 cargo pants =D
3. my handphone!
4. my new laptop! (ok OK, it's my mum's, but that's not the point la)
5. my mp3 =)
6. my father's dry-fit shirts! yay they're super comfortable to wear after training la
7. my braces-less teeth! *BEAMS*
haha msn is down! =( i'm NOT HAPPY ABOUT IT MAN. rarrr. but ya. that's not the point.
oh well. haha it was quite funny actually. i realised that noone was replying me, then the messages said they couldnt be delivered, then xtine re-signed in: xtine. IS EXPERIENCING TECHNICAL DIFFICULTIES
haha that's when i realised it wasn't just me! then i realised that was why mark and chunhan had been signing in and out so much. then i tried signing off and on. then suddenly, everyone just went offline. LOL quite funny really. haha.
so as you ca gather, i'm bored! but ya. that's not the point. (IRONY CATCH THE IRONY) or maybe not irony haha AIYAH nevermind i'm tired =) shall go to sleep yay goodnight!
Posted by nayrakroarual at 12:29 AM
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Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Wednesday15.11.06i hereby declare myself a home economics disaster, being unable to:
- preheat the oven (this one i can normally do, but the oven refused to on properly somehow)
- find the can opener
- use the can opener
- make canbell soup
- steam rice
- find the chicken in the fridge and hence pop it into the oven
- find the butter
- cut the butter
- find the kaya
- find the frying pan
- find the flat ladle-ish thing you use along with the frying pan to fry stuff
- measure oil
- find the onions
- chop the onions
- fry the onions
- crack eggs (david had to crack them for me how XP how pathetic is that
- fry eggs (although this is also largely due to the fact that i cannot light the stove)
anyway, so my brothers (and incidentally, me too) had a horrible lunch today. even I thought the eggs were way too salty, and that's really saying something. it was NOT a pleasant experience, and i messed up the kitchen pretty well in the process as well. *wince* somehow, it always seemed easier in the school kitchen.
anyway, get well soon, jastine! =)
"an air bubble spontaneously formed in his intercostal space hence depressing his right lung and causing it to stop working."
hence, the lung collapse. ouch. and also us sorely missing him last night. =( but oh well! we'll find some way to make it up to him, yeah? go jastine =) haha
Posted by nayrakroarual at 11:42 PM
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Thursday, November 09, 2006
Thursday09.11.06ARRRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!MY COM CRASHED!!! ARRGH sheesh WTH #%$%(^&(*()_**%$@$E(&_) huhhhhhhhhhhh =((((((( stupid stupid stupid com!!! gahhh.
i was just using it yesterday, then i was calling up photoshop to work on the dance jacket stuff and all and IT CRASHED!!! there was like a small "pah" sound and the whole screen just went blank! and it won't on. i tried pressing the reset button, pressing and/or holding the startup button, plugging and unplugging everything (although judging that my com is actually a laptop that's supposed to function without a plug that wouldn't really work anyway) and shaking and banging the com. haha well i didn't dare to slam it too hard so i just sort of banged it in case it was something out of place or something (well, what was i supposed to do? i was desperate ok.).
rarrr. then i decided since my laptop is down i shall go spend more time with my tv. and so i switch the tv on and VOILA my tv is spoilt too -_- xinhui thinks it's jealous because i spend too much time on the com and too little time watching it but it has my brothers' attention what! gah. so now i'm technology-broke, practically. this is what's gonna happen, divided by a million of course, when that "perfect disaster" thing i watched on national geographic the other day of a technological failure by a sunstorm or something happens. see! i DO watch tv! *glares at the tv*
sigh. i hate being cut off from the world! thank goodness my phone is still working i tell you. or else i would scream. and in case you're wondering why i'm able to be online typing this, i'm using the com outside my room. it's my grandfather's he brought it from his office when my brothers broke my laptop screen. now it's just used for them to play games. and it's totally used by them so i'm totally clueless as to how to operate it. and i can't even install msn because i don't have administrator privileges! *cross* and my brothers are asleep so i can't ask them. i couldn't even log on, i had to get mum to log on because they password-protected their user accounts. and she wouldn't even tell me the pw to david's account (the one i'm in now). why is it that THEY are told MY passwords when i change passwords then?! sheesh. and she doesn't know daniel's password, she's only allowed access to this user so that she can check her email. bleagh. i hope i get a new com/my com fixed soon. that's xinhui's theory why my com crashed, by the way. cause yeye was talking about getting me this on-offer student laptop since my screen was totally broken. he'd just walked out of the room when my com crashed. who says machines don't have feelings?
rarrrrr.
oh on a happier note, i got a bag for prom! yay! and i'm totally upset that pamela got shoes that match my bag and dress haha although she has superb taste and looks gorgeous in them. so i guess it's ok.at least i have good taste.
haha and my mum is watching the chinese channel. she somehow managed to fix the tv such that we get non-cable shows. which is at least something, although i'm missing my trashy disney channel shows. haha. and i miss the national geographic shows. like the ones daniel (and by extension david, me and sometimes mummy and papa) always watches - perfect disaster, air crash investigation, crash scene investigation, the flight that fought back, etc. air crash investigation is very nice. although it makes you feel like every plane you're on has a really high chance of crashing. but then they do usually tell you what safety measures they've taken after that crash at the end of the show, so it's not so bad. hm. so anyway, mum was watching the chinese news, and i sat down to watch and try to figure it out. and i was like saying to myself, "oh, this'll improve my chinese! :)" then i realised that chinese is OVER *bsh* haha old habits die hard, i guess. or an indicator of how much chinese has actually infiltrated my mind and life without me realising. haha then the next thought was: " maybe i should actually watch this still. after all, the chinese channel is far more watched than the english one so the quality must be better." (yeah, the logic kinda sucks, but it IS true to a certain extent ok.) haha then all the "class and identity/race and identity" readings flashed in my head and all and i realised how much lang arts has subtly changed my perspective of the world too. it's true when they say a man cannot step into the same river twice. the river is not the same, and neither is the man.
it's true. hm. interesting. once you know something, you may forget it, but you can never un-know it. it's a one-way street, this life thing. you can only learn more, never less. (of course, whether you get smarter or not is an entirely different matter, but in any case that's not the point here.) your perspective keeps changing, and sometimes when you've learnt even more you realise that the way you looked at things at first is actually the way you look at them now (after a lot of changing perspectives), or it was a good way, or something. kinda like shopping for shoes (prom is SO taking over my life -_-): you walk around the whole place, then realise the shoes you like best were in one of the first few shops. hm.
speaking of which, i went shopping today. (for prom. what else? sigh.) haha my slipper broke!! wth. xinhui and i were like OH NO OH NO haha then xinhui called pamela to check if she'd left the house yet in case she could bring slippers for me. she had, but then she suggested going to popular for glue. haha i was really skeptical, but hey, you know what, elephant glue is REALLY good. my slipper held through all the shopping after that, and all the way to school and dinner and shopping after dance! haha xinhui dripped the glue on me *wince* while she was like gluing my slipper =( haha so now my fingernail is superglue-layered. at least the part on my skin kinda wore off with the cells. (epidermis layer? epithelial cells? something like. that. gosh i'm so SAD i'm not taking bio next year! =( ok well back to the point..)
haha apparently pamela had gotten her fingers stuck together for like a whole day last year with the same glue. quite funny, i'd always thought roald dahl exaggerated (hyperbole!) when he wrote of matilda gluing her father's hat to his head for revenge. so it's actually possible. wow.
met nicole and xiao xian shopping as well! haha =) and jade from america's next top model! gosh. cool man. and yay. now i'm bored with blogging. bye! =)
Posted by nayrakroarual at 10:47 PM
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Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Tuesday07.11.06i was thinking about really upsetting things and all on the way back and going to blog some abstract angsty depressed post. haha but now i'm high! well, relatively. haha so yay =) shall not be angsty and depressed ^^ yay
prom is going to be so fun! and for the thousandth time, it's taking over our lives! but yeah haha finally settled on the dress, now it's to shoes, bag and accessories! sigh. and nails. haha it would be my style to paint my nails alternating black and white, but i think maybe ill try a weird or totally safe colour. haha so fun! i like getting painted nails. though it's irritaing that i have to agonise over getting it chipped.
how high the price we pay for vanity!
haha. yay =) oh i shall be obsessive and enthuse about the cardshop idea! so fun =) and we passed Prints the other day and xtine reintroduced this card design to me and made it a new card idea. she has so MANY super GREAT ideas i tell you.
another obsession - prom! xtine looks great, eunice looks absolutely gorgeous, and everyone is going to look fabulous! haha im worried about the shoes though. heels make my right ankle (the not-so-recently sprained one) ache, for some reason, and i'm quite worried about it. but it should be healed by now what! sheesh.
haha a thought just crossed my mind: this post is to zhihui or chunhan's posts what chick lit is to zhihuitype novels! haha yay ^^ actually i don't really think that's a good thing haha but oh well at least it's brainless and happy! like chick lit ^^
Posted by nayrakroarual at 11:38 PM
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Monday06.11.06eight days to prom! it's taking over our lives! it's all everyone is talking about! (almost.)
it's funny whenyou find yourselflooking from the outsidei'm standing herebut all i wantis to be over therewhy did i let myself believe
miracles could happen?
'cos now i have to pretend
that i don't really care
i thought you were my fairytalemy dream when i'm not sleepinga wish upon a star that's coming truebut everybody else could tellthat i confused my feelings with the truthwhen there was me and youi swore i knew the melody that i heard you singing and when you smiled you made me feel like i could sing along but then you went and changed the words now my heart is emptyi'm only left with used-to-beensand once upon a songnow i know you're not a fairytaleand dreams were meant for sleepingand wishes upon a starjust don't come true'cos now even i can tellthat i confused my feelings with the truthbecause i liked the viewwhen there was me and youi can't believe that i could be so blindit's like you were floatingwhile i was fallingand i didn't mindbecause i liked the viewi thought you felt it toowhen there was me and you
Posted by nayrakroarual at 12:41 AM
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Monday, November 06, 2006
Sunday05.11.06how many times have i been here already, trying to type out something, nothing coming out?
you've read the cliched lines - 'she opened her mouth and drew breath, but no sound came out'
anyway, i'm being obsessive, but christine came up with this cool name for the card shop and i can't wait to get started! hee. oh well, i should stop bugging people. haha its quite funny that i can't really do anything about the shop myself to get it started since i dont know nuts about webdesign or anything. oh well.
and we're ALL being obsessive here, but GOSH prom is so difficult! dress, scarf/jacket, bag, shoes, accessories, hair, nails, makeup... guys TOTALLY have it easier! haha. everyone's just fixated on it, including me, but can't help it =/ gosh so much to do SO LITTLE TIME
psl training, monday tuesday wednesday friday. dance, tuesday thursday friday morning and afternoon. netball, monday wednesday friday.
TELL ME how i am supposed to find stuff in time for prom?!?!
and now i've got yet another worry - next year. yeah, it's early, but i have to decide now. dance syf, netball nationals, tsd (the first half year is helping the seniors prepare for A's so really packed), and now, grade 8 ballet exam. i can't manage, i KNOW i can't manage.
and impossible is not, NOT supposed to be in my vocabulary. neither is "can't". but it's true! well, i hope not. but i could barely manage ballet exam on its own this year already (well, plus school exams), now you're telling me that i have to add it on to something that's already impossible to cope with? i mean, EVERYONE is screaming about how much time tsd is gonna take and all, not the least of which is kyna (dance and vj senior) who is taking my combi and scaring me half to death with the science-and-tsd-huge-workload! then on top of tsd and sciences, i have dance syf. it's copable. rougher than some might like, but lots of people have that kinda stress, not the least kyna herself too as she's also in syf and it'll be her A's she's preparing for. so, up to this point, it's tough but still manageable.
then i add netball. now everyone starts to scream CRAZY at me. jack of all trades, master of none, don'tbiteofmorethanyoucanchew, youneedtodropSOMETHING, SOMETHINGhastogo and suchlike phrases are quoted left right centre. i think i might just do it, i mean, why not? (and everyone yells, WHY?! because it's IMPOSSIBLE, it's TOO MUCH, it's CRAZY, that's why!) maybe i might, MIGHT be able to make dance syf and netball nationals, though not the way netball is going at the moment =( , but add tsd and science and the hope of not getting Os, Es and Us and the possibility shrinks tremendously.
now, add on the grade 8 ballet exam, youth sunday and other youth commitee commitments.
so, maybe impossible is finally creeping into my vocab.
but..
you don't think? maybe? that..
i can?
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on a lighter note, i got 70 for my ballet exam! a merit! i thought i was going to fail and i got not a Pass (40-54) but a HIGH Merit (merit: 55-74), almost distinction! maurice, who is the dance captain of rgs and totally so much better got a 75! =D other people who are both really so much stronger and all got a 70 and 69 i was TOTALLY shocked (the examiner must be blind) but yeah omg cool! and yeah some other people i thought i would get the same around got like a 55! and CRAZY i got 5/10 which is even more than a pass (4/10) for pointe! even though i fell off and was totally hopping for the releves devant and derriere! THANK YOU LORD =)
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i hate the way i don't hate you andi want to hate you half as much as i hate myself.
Posted by nayrakroarual at 12:06 AM
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Saturday, November 04, 2006
Friday04.11.06we're into november! =D (yes, i just noticed. you got a problem with that?)
haha yay! symposium's tomorrow, and eunice is totally doing gorgeous html at the moment. html also happens to be a cool subj combi. lol. okay im high. but that's not the point!
haha yay today we had rewind stuff. so irritating, had to pack and unpack and repack *glares at mr koh* and transport stuff all over the place.
it was hilarious mr koh teased mark that maybe i would have done better to carry the box instead of him =P hee and then scolded chunhan for letting me carry the box. haha!
christine and eunice and i were like discussing prom outfits and all haha FUN =) we had an order-in Macdonalds lunch (remind me never to forget to ask for salt when we order in again. the school salt doesnt stick to the fries.) and basically it was very very fun. haha yixiang was very funny but then yixiang is always hilarious haha =) yay
i think all the rewind people plus others are very nice!
haha actually our whole ip is very nice what am i talking about. haha oh well. michelle left early to go for little shop of horrors although according to everyone except marianne it was horrible (NOTE PUN) haha and speaking of puns, we (the rewind people) found quite a few typos in the rewind stuff haha but oh well at least the biggest ones can be seen as some postmodern pun or something lol.
oh dance was a bit -_- because we only had a few eights to practise to we couldn't really do much anyway. but min li brought min min OMG so cute! haha i havent seen her in forever, except for a second or two at dance concerts and all. she's really grown. and WHAT THE HELL she is grade six. SIX. p4, doing grade six. michelle only finished her grade six two years ago! (that's sec2, for those who can't count.) when i was p4 i was in grade 3! (i think.) SO EMBARRASSING I TELL YOU. she puts all of us to shame. that whole min- family puts us normal struggling dancers to shame - minli (j1, scgsp to scgs to vjc), who can dance anything, always on time, fantastic pickup speed and amazing muscle memory, among the first to pick up any new move unless it involves breakdancing, multiple principle roles and lead parts in previous dances and now vjc's dance coordinator. minyi (sec2, scgsp to scgs), who was so good they put her to dance en pointe for the dance with a solo and a DOUBLE pirouette EN POINTE at the primary school syf TWO YEARS AGO! gosh i can't even do a single en pointe now! although that's different cos of my feet. but yeah most of us are struggling to do releves en pointe and she's doing SEVEN can you imagine SEVEN pose turns AND a DOUBLE pirouette
en pointe and is dancing the whole syf EN POINTE which tells you how confident everyone is of her work when she is p6!! gosh. and she does jazz and tap too WOW). min min (p4, scgsp) who was dancing right out of the cradle (ballet, jazz AND tap) and assisted ms deans in teaching us our jazz pre-primary and primary syllabus when we took it three/two years ago. imagine, a six-year-old BARELY primary one teaching us sec 1s-4s jazz. gosh. there you have it, your ideal dance family! CRAZY PEOPLE LA haha all the rest of us are SO put to shame.
okay, it's now saturday. i should actually sleep. haha =) i can't wait for syf! *claps hands*
Posted by nayrakroarual at 12:07 AM
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