Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Tuesday31.01.05I HAVE GREEN NAILS =)yay. haha cny was every bit as boring as i expected, and then some. luckily i had my handphone (whew) if not i'd have just driven myself crazy. thank you to all the people i smsed, and super sorry for forever bugging you guys! haha well the dressing up was fun, i guess. i love dressing up. yay. XD on sunday our whole bs group was late and we were like standing outside the sanctuary complimenting each other's outfits haha before going in. rev burke's sermon totally rocked, as usual. it was really applicable. and claire asked me if i wanted to lead worship for youth sunday!! !!!!!!!!! haha omg i was like OMG hahaha really didn't expect it. i dont know though, will i be able to commit? AHHHHH ><>
LA task and lit assignment-- what do mr koh and mrs jay want, to kill us? and the trig 4 and 5 assignments which are killers too. haha. you know, when i see homework lists on people's blogs i just navigate to another blog straight away. regardless. so probably ive already chased away quite a few people. hopefully not to do those above mentioned tasks. anyway, gotta run. *runs*
speaking of which, tomorrow is cross country. i can't wait!! haha yayyyyy
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Friday, January 27, 2006
Friday
27.01.06
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTINE !!!!!!! XD
haha today netball went running in the morning as a team, before the cny celebrations. we came back in time to bathe in school and then rush to house meeting haha. SO SAD LA i missed the last 14th ct council meeting. (at least i THINK we're the 14th ct council. it might be the 13th or somthing.)
sigh well it was really fun. its so much easier to run in the morning, especially by the beach, with the breeze and all, and ESPECIALLY with the netballers. haha i love glanies she was super nice cheering us all on and encouraging us all the way. i mean, she's really fierce and im really scared of her but she's also the one who's always encouraging everyone and bringing the whole team morale up. haha remember inhale through nose exhale through mouth! XD go vj netballers!! yeah ;)
memoirs of a geisha was every bit as bad as the reviews it got. which is, not very. it was quite enjoyable actually and i'm really glad i watched it. but i'm even more thankful that i got the book. yayyy i love reading. ^^
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Monday, January 23, 2006
Monday
23.01.06
I woke up this morning feeling kind of blue and I stumbled out of bed and dragged my feet across the room. Right outside my front door was a rose and a note that said
'Somebody Loves You'.
But out on the street it starts to pour and before I get soaking wet, a total stranger runs to give me the jacket off his back. I turn around to thank him, but he waves me with a smile. I can hardly believe my eyes...
He puts on a halo and starts to fly.
Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to an angel in disguise
Everyday can be legendary
Every minute, an endless surprise
You could be the next angel in disguise
I woke up this morning,
feeling kind of new.
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[ you know the world is coming to an end when your hell of an annoying brother has more of a love life than you do. ]
i read this off my "jie"'s msn nickname. well, well, well. please. romance isn't all there is to life! (c'mon, what happened to the joy of studying? =D)
after all, the best times are spent with your friends. memories you can keep without hurting. after you break up with your bf, you tend to forget (or try to) the happy memories you had with that special person. but friendship is so much more lasting, isn't it? (okay the answer is IT IS. just comply.)
haha. and another thing. WTH haha. "your hell of an annoying brother has more of a love life than you do". this is not happening. don't get me wrong, im not jealous. but to be completely honest, i feel sorry for the poor girl. (okay lets forget that i was once falling for this guy okay? i mean, he's really nice, after all. =S) haha okay actually i'm just being mean at the moment. its not completely mind-blowing. he IS incredibly sweet, caring, sensitive, etc. this time, i'm not even being sarcastic, man.
...
it's just that all this while i was under the illusion that he's been single since, i don't know, last year?
*blinks*
wow.
haha. OKAY let's quit the meanness. after meeting my juniors, i realised that i have incredibly low tolerance for fools. not just in the IQ sense (although that is definitely a consideration), but also in the EQ sense. one wonders how i put up with myself then. the answer is, of course, that i have no idea. ^^
yay. ^^
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Monday, January 16, 2006
Monday
16.01.06
The Room
In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room. There were no distinguishing features except for the one wall covered with small indexcard files. They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endlessly in either direction, had very different headings. As I drew near the wall of files,the first to catch my attention was one that read "Guys I have liked." I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one. And in that moment, without being told, I knew exactly where I was. This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalogue system for my life. Here were written the actions of my every moment, big and small, in a detail my memory couldn't match.
A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their contenst. Some brought joy and sweet memories; others a sense of shame and regret so intense that I would look over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching. A file named "Friends" was next to one marked "Friends I have betrayed." The titles ranged from the mundane to the outright weird. "TV shows I have Watched," "Lies I have Told," "Comfort I have given," "Jokes I Have Laughed at."
Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: "Things I've yelled at my brothers." Others I couldn't laugh at: "People I Have Hurt In My Anger", "Things I Have Muttered Under My Breath at My Parents." I never ceased to be surprised by the contents. Often there were many more cards than I expected, sometimes fewer than I hoped.
I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived. Could it be possible that I had the time in my years to fill each of thesethousands or even millions of cards? But each card confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting, signed with my signature. When I pulled out the file marked "Books I have read, "I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly and yet after two or three yards, I hadn't found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of the books but more by the vast time I knew that file represented-- the vast time wasted.
When I came to a file marked "Hateful Thoughts," I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size, and drewout a card. I shuddered at its detailed content. I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded. An almost animal rage broke on me. One thought dominated my mind: No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! How could I live with this knowledge? How could I have even LIVED these things?! In insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didn't matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards. But as I took it at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I couldnot dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when I tried to tear it. Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, shuddering sigh.
And then I saw it... The title read,"People I Have Shared the Gospel With." The handle was brighter than those around it-- newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand. And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that they hurt. They started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of fear, frustration, disappointment, sorrow. And mostly, I cried from the overwhelming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key. But then as I pushed away the tears, I saw Him.
Blameless, sinless, pure.
Jesus, who was called the Christ.
I lowered my eyes, not daring to meet His, yet i knew He could see right through me, to the darkest secrets of my soul. I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldn't bear to watch His response. And in the moment I could bring myself to look at His face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own. He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes. Why did He have to read every one? Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didn't anger me. I dropped my head,c overed my face with my hands and began to cry again. He walked over and put Hi sarm around me. He could have said so many things, rebuked me so many times. But He didn't say a word. He just sat there with me.
Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of theroom, He took out a file and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card. "No!" I shouted rushing to Him. All I could find to say was "No, no," as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldn't be on these cards. It wasn't supposed to be there, it couldn't be there. How could He, so pure and blameless, bear to sign over those shameful cards? But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, and so alive. The name of Jesus covered mine, written with His blood. He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and began to sign the cards. I watched in mixed horror, relief and awe as He slowly worked His way through the files. I didn't understand how He could bear to take all the blame, all the shame of all I had done. Then, I realised He didn't sign His name on some of the cards. He skipped the file "People I have helped" completely. He didn't take the good, yet He covered all the bad.
I don't think I'll ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side. He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, "It is finished."I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its door. There were still cards to be written.
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." - Phil. 4:13
"For God so loved the world that He gave His only son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life." John 3:16
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Sunday, January 15, 2006
Sunday
15.01.06
Service Learning Camp/NACLI camp rocked.
10/01/06 (wednesday) morning 07am.
chiongeg chinese homework with xtine. in the end, we decided to hand up on friday, but of course i still havent. then we went to the bus bay hurriedly after meeting ms low for SL. 9 of us (charissa michelle xinhui pamela simran prema xiaoxian nicole and me) took the v11 bus, cos they split v13 to join the various buses. haha. seeing leon in his job as ct rep made me feel unbelievably irresponsible and slack. >< eeks.
at NACLI, we played warm up games and checked in to our rooms. we were awed by the pampered-ness of vip camps. the rooms were like hotel ones, except without the phone. lol. my roommates -- gillian and luoxi. olivia was supposed to be there too, but she was sick and missed the whole camp.
the first day was pretty boring. i listened and took notes til the last couple of hours. anyway, the meals were pretty good. we sat in a big v13 girl clique. =) it was fun. and the night time chatting (lets not say bitching shall we) totally rocked.
Day 2 was a lot better. we did mass dance in the morning and night.
my group "viswatej" won for some plate-hitting competition thing. it was super fun! domino-building was frustrating like hell, but in the end it paid off- the effect was wonderful. our SL group's was the only one that feel completely when pushed. YAYY haha we did a lovely flower shape that was $#%^&* hard haha. flower power! haha it totally and utterly rocked. yayy. the confidence rope activity also frustrated me, but in a different way. Course C (the course i was in) rocks. i really felt that i got to know some of the v11 people better (or, at all). and at lunch, i discovered how very nice the v11 girls are. haha. thank you for letting me sit with you guys ya. =)
that second night, the v13 girls once again congregated in one of our rooms for a chat and all. ahha they -- okay, we -- did some stupid love-fortune thing. LOL it was super funny. charissa had a perfect set and we set about trying to tease who HE was out of her. then zhihui had a perfect set with mr Koh and we all nearly died laughing. of course, we were once again chased out by the room manager. but it still totally rocked. i love our class girls, and i really hope we'll continue these friendships and all. i really feel that we've grown quite close after all this while and all we've been through...
Day 3 was fun too.
reflections, debrief... well, it was still good. not too boring. before the reflections and all we played station games, and my group "passION" as termed by ShaoSheng tied for second. haha it was quite fun. TEAM BEFORE SELF people!!!!! haha. during the mealtimes some of us gathered to play this game called "21" (NOT blackjack). it was quite fun haha. the only time guys will gentlemanly-ly offer you drinks. *snigger*
so anyway, i really enjoyed myself this camp. =) and i also got to know many people i didn't even know at all before this... it was a refreshing experience, and i'm really glad i didn't miss it. yay.
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Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Tuesday
10.01.2006
haha WHOOHOO orientation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
C is for CHRONOS!
C-H-R-O-N-O-S
C is for CHRONOS!
C-H-R-O-N-O-S
C is for CHRONOS!
C-H-R-O-N-O-S
C is for CHRONOS!
C-H-R-O-N-O-S
BOOM BOOM shake shake the room
BOOM BOOM shake shake the room
BOOM BOOM shake shake the room
I-I-I- ICIS!!!
BRR -- it's cold in here!
there must be VAHALLAR in the atmosphere ...i say
BRR -- it's cold in here!
there must be VAHALLAR in the atmosphere ...i say
o-e-o-e-o-e-o SHING SHING SHING
0-e-0-e-0-e-o SA SA SA
thor and razzle, razzle razzle thor, razzle razzle thor, razzle razzle razzle thor,
thor and razzle, razzle razzle thor, razzle razzle thor, razzle razzle razzle thor...
say ra-ra-ra- razzle
say ra-ra-ra- razzle
say ra-ra-ra- razzle
*stamp stamp stamp* RAZZLE!!
in-fer-no IN-FER-NO
in-fer-no IN-FER-NO
in-fer-no IN-FER-NO
*clap-clap-clap* INFERNO!!
come on osmoze lets shake the floor lets shake the floor *stampstamp* ENCORE
come on icis lets shake the floor lets shake the floor *stampstamp* WE WANT MORE
osmoze on the left, icis on the right, together we are...
HYDROGEN OXIDE!!
wahhhhh i was dunked TEN TIMES yesterday!!! oh my goodness LOL ahhahhahaa
#1-2 my OG team, cyclops *glares*
#2-7 zach derrik and some other guys (yes, four times in a row)
#8 yirui
#9 jastine
#10 i cant remember! lolllll
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Saturday, January 07, 2006
Friday
06.01.2006
VJ MASS DANCE AT SUNTEC ROCKED!!!!!! haha we couldnt really hear the music and we couldnt cheer together cos we were all spread out, but it rocked all the same. after all the mass dances (which we all flopped through, including ogls) we formed this running train and ran around the fountain. we did "v-vj-vjc" and "london bridge is falling down" and "vj boleh". it was like doing pt around the fountain, but still very fun. haha and then those who weren't in the train either held out their hands as they sang "london bridge" or held out one hand for us to slap (like champions when they come into the stadium) haha it ROCKED. could really feel the spirit and... well, was really glad to be part of vj then. later we realised the security guard was also very "on" haha he was dancing in the middle of this group of vj-ians to the song "hollaback girl" ahha so cool!! haha
later mark xinhui pamela christine yirui chunhan jastine henry desmond and yeejek (and me) went out for supper! haha the 06v12 and v11 classes also went out!! so enthu =D yeah! haha and the 05v12 people also went out. yayy. we totally clogged up mac's. haha. =) *dances around happily*
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Wednesday, January 04, 2006
Wednesday
04.01.2006
a few random thoughts:
vj mass dance rocks.
chronos (my orientation group) rocks.
shatec better rock too.
i like the abstract concept of IP juniors better than the concrete reality. (quote curtesy of christine)
although i do like j1 juniors. haha. i'm being selfish. XD
boomboom shakeshake the room boomboom shakeshake the room i-i-i-icis!!
haha
---end random thoughts---
Posted by nayrakroarual at 10:06 PM
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Monday, January 02, 2006
Monday
02.01.2006
nostalgia.
i was packing my drawer just now. i ended up crying to myself.
twice.
i was looking through this year's first issue of the victoriana.
the first thing i saw when i flipped it open was mr chia dressed in the god of fortune attire.
i saw george posing for the camera while doing warm ups @ sec three camp. i saw victorians running during sports day.
i saw photographs of our victory at national cross country, champions of both b and c boys. i read about shi ronghua throwing up his lunch 500m from the finish line, before overtaking others to finish 2nd.
and while all this was happening, memories, scenes of my life in victoria, just shot past me.
i cried. i wanted to continue reading, but i quickly put it away for another time.
not long after, i found the photographs of VSPB `04, 05i started to tear again.
the times we shared, as one big Victorian family. i really really miss those times.
Victoria really is something more.
copyright danielong
nostalgia.
she was, due to forceful decree from the mother, tidying her room that day.
no tears fell.
she deliberately ignored the seven dark green yearbooks. each book was varying shades of dark greenish-blue, printed with the same gold font, the same words, a different year.
she did not even look at the hardcover book with JADE AND GOLD blazing on its front.
she moved but did not open, packed but did not consider, the clear plastic files with everything from her p5 syf choir picture to her primary one art inside. she took no notice of the full-to-bursting third drawer in the cupboard.
neither did she bother to wipe the dust from the files as she stacked them on the dining table to be given away. the flimsy coloured folders with the same words and same emblem printed on the front. the same words and emblem that, unlike everything else in the file, had not faded in her memory, nor in her heart.
of course, she could not avoid all of it.
she would close a file a little quicker, skip a particular shelf, ignore a particular stack of documents.
sometimes, her eyes would linger briefly on a scribbled sentence, then her hands shove the sheet into the third drawer.
her hands did not tremble, her pace did not slow. her face was the same peacefully bland expression it had been when she started.
no tears fell.
but in her eyes, the fire had dwindled to a dully flickering spark.
you're not the only one with a hole in your heart.
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Monday
02.01.2005
haha.
laura: hey could you tell me where you found next year's timetable?
mark: the vipportal
laura: ehh where is it? can't find it
mark: click timetable
laura: oh.
*bsh*
Posted by nayrakroarual at 1:08 AM
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