And I just watched Uptown Girls and cried like shit during the little girl's ballet recital (although her ballet totally sucked despite the 200 plies she was supposed to have done -.-) and so now I can't sleep or I'll wake up with major headache and puffy eyes tomorrow.
There're lots of people I really really need to look up after As. It's gonna be so weird. I'm rather freaked it'll be contrived and all, like, "hey, i know i haven't said hi in 1/2/6 years, but how are you?"
Boo.
And they'll be like. Oh, so now As are over and she's got lots of time.. "I'm good, and you?"
Boo.
But I'm gonna grit my teeth anyway. And hope! Yay (:
We're almost there. Hm. I'm rather scared, actually. Sure, studying sucks. But it's been giving my life structure for the past year. *shrug*
Eighteen. I didn't mean what I said to Diane and Pinrui really. I shouldn't have said it. I keep thinking about it and feeling stupid. Arrgh. I really didn't mean it. Darn mouth.
I guess I'm just... overexpectant. or underexpectant. Whatever. Is it really that special? I used to look forward to it all year round. Til the past couple of years, it just completely died off. I remember spending the day moping around at home because Daniel was sick. Or stuck in a traffic jam in some foreign country.
David asked me what I wanted. I don't know. Everything that I need, I have. Everything I want, I can get. Well, within reason. Materially anyway. It's the top of Maslow's hierarchy that's hard to achieve.
Not my best day. Not my best week, really. I'm not entirely sure why I'm feeling so blah. I mean, it's partly the A's, but.. I dunno. *shrug* It's not just blah. It's... ................ .
today was relatively unproductive. but at least studying with johanna and wei-an was nice. they're awesome friends.
hm. well, thank you for making me smile. =)
werewolf for christmas is on again. i'm gonna sign up once i find out what our postal code is.
csi supreme sunday was cool. as usual.
stream of consciousness. ki's over. no need to think critically. naw, that's a fallacy.
the nice thing about today was being green. wore two shades of green :) green turtle neck, green zara shirt top layer, green earrings, a touch of green eyeshadow (which obviously no one could see, it was just to make myself feel all-green XD), green water bottle, green file. yay :)
physics is gonna kill me. no actually, with luck, i'll live through physics. but tsd.. argh. and ki. but ki's already done. it's all in God's hands now. well. it always was. but yeah.
oh and. Hans, thanks for making me laugh during lunch today. i'm still smiling when i think about the bungee jumping and skydiving now. yea. =)
and wei-an. for making being wei-an. =)
and johanna. for ..yeah. being johanna. haha. thanks, girl.
i'm gonna make everyone a Things I Love About You list. and give it to them. and tell them i love them.
it's number 72 on my 100 things to do before i die list. tell all my friends i love them.
funny, it didn't even make the first 70. screwed up priorities.
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me: (hooks arm into mum's arm) Hey, after A's, we TOTALLY have to go shopping man. mummy: YEAH! We'll get our hair done, and go for facials/massages, and buy new shoes... me: (stares at mum in disbelief for a moment. then un-stuns and joins in)..yeah i need new shoes! we can buy shoes and clothes and- mummy: -and bags! and make your papa broke! HAHA XD
.single en dehor pirouette en pointe
.pose pirouette en dedan en pointe
.play the guitar be able to play guitar for worship.
.lose 5kg
.a cartwheel without hands
.a front walk, back walk and round-off
.write a page in html
.paint a good picture
.eat Cold Rock ice cream .go bungee jumping .go sky diving