Saturday, March 17, 2007
Saturday17.03.07Have a KitKat.Twenty things I have done in the last two weeks:
- not gone home more than once
- slept in my sleeping bag for twelve nights
- gotten a back/neck ache as a result
- not used my own bathroom more than once
- gotta an outbreak as a result
- gotten frustrated at my stupid idiotic klutzy self
- become frustrated at my arm as a result
- learnt how to shoot (unfortunately, not reliably) with my left hand
- realised the importance of a functional elbow even in dance
- not talked to my family for more than one minute ("hi papa, thanks for coming to pick me up!" "mum, could you send me to school please?")
- missed my parents
- missed my brothers (okay that was definitely a first. well, maybe a second.)
- not talked to/communicated with michelle zhuang, michelle lim, may, jiaxin, lucinda, mel, mark, and a whole lot of other people that matter
- not attended lessons
- not seen/talked to my class (science OR tsd)
- not read my bible
- not gone to church
- not done my QT
- not gone for ballet
- not blogged
words cannot describe the feeling i am experiencing at this moment, but the closest would be something in between desperation, frustration, disappointment and exhaustion. oh, and determination. the next person to quote to me "jack of all trades, master of none" can just go and look for some new quote. that one isn't working on me.
3 things to say:
- leave it. people have a right to believe what they want to believe and do what they want to. don't try to force them to conform to yours. it's SO not about that.
- i feel like i'm born again, into the wrong place. i can't
belong here.
- i hate that.
1 thing to note:
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Posted by nayrakroarual at 11:39 PM
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