Monday, November 06, 2006
Sunday05.11.06how many times have i been here already, trying to type out something, nothing coming out?
you've read the cliched lines - 'she opened her mouth and drew breath, but no sound came out'
anyway, i'm being obsessive, but christine came up with this cool name for the card shop and i can't wait to get started! hee. oh well, i should stop bugging people. haha its quite funny that i can't really do anything about the shop myself to get it started since i dont know nuts about webdesign or anything. oh well.
and we're ALL being obsessive here, but GOSH prom is so difficult! dress, scarf/jacket, bag, shoes, accessories, hair, nails, makeup... guys TOTALLY have it easier! haha. everyone's just fixated on it, including me, but can't help it =/ gosh so much to do SO LITTLE TIME
psl training, monday tuesday wednesday friday. dance, tuesday thursday friday morning and afternoon. netball, monday wednesday friday.
TELL ME how i am supposed to find stuff in time for prom?!?!
and now i've got yet another worry - next year. yeah, it's early, but i have to decide now. dance syf, netball nationals, tsd (the first half year is helping the seniors prepare for A's so really packed), and now, grade 8 ballet exam. i can't manage, i KNOW i can't manage.
and impossible is not, NOT supposed to be in my vocabulary. neither is "can't". but it's true! well, i hope not. but i could barely manage ballet exam on its own this year already (well, plus school exams), now you're telling me that i have to add it on to something that's already impossible to cope with? i mean, EVERYONE is screaming about how much time tsd is gonna take and all, not the least of which is kyna (dance and vj senior) who is taking my combi and scaring me half to death with the science-and-tsd-huge-workload! then on top of tsd and sciences, i have dance syf. it's copable. rougher than some might like, but lots of people have that kinda stress, not the least kyna herself too as she's also in syf and it'll be her A's she's preparing for. so, up to this point, it's tough but still manageable.
then i add netball. now everyone starts to scream CRAZY at me. jack of all trades, master of none, don'tbiteofmorethanyoucanchew, youneedtodropSOMETHING, SOMETHINGhastogo and suchlike phrases are quoted left right centre. i think i might just do it, i mean, why not? (and everyone yells, WHY?! because it's IMPOSSIBLE, it's TOO MUCH, it's CRAZY, that's why!) maybe i might, MIGHT be able to make dance syf and netball nationals, though not the way netball is going at the moment =( , but add tsd and science and the hope of not getting Os, Es and Us and the possibility shrinks tremendously.
now, add on the grade 8 ballet exam, youth sunday and other youth commitee commitments.
so, maybe impossible is finally creeping into my vocab.
but..
you don't think? maybe? that..
i can?
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on a lighter note, i got 70 for my ballet exam! a merit! i thought i was going to fail and i got not a Pass (40-54) but a HIGH Merit (merit: 55-74), almost distinction! maurice, who is the dance captain of rgs and totally so much better got a 75! =D other people who are both really so much stronger and all got a 70 and 69 i was TOTALLY shocked (the examiner must be blind) but yeah omg cool! and yeah some other people i thought i would get the same around got like a 55! and CRAZY i got 5/10 which is even more than a pass (4/10) for pointe! even though i fell off and was totally hopping for the releves devant and derriere! THANK YOU LORD =)
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i hate the way i don't hate you andi want to hate you half as much as i hate myself.
Posted by nayrakroarual at 12:06 AM
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