Monday, August 18, 2008
Go listen! hereIt really was quite cool. I realise I do actually often do the whole "frequent sinner points" thing. Do my quiet time every day, read the bible, go for bible study, lead worship, ++++++ and then I feel less bad about lying about something or, I don't know, playing an online game or something.
It sucks. Especially lately, I really hate lying to people. Usually my mum. Usually Papa doesn't ask questions that put me on the spot, thank God. Sigh.
It's also easier to tell the truth. If you tell the truth you don't have to remember anything.
Well, sometimes. I'm quite bad at lying elaborately. I'll pause, and then they can tell I'm not telling the whole truth. You can see it in their eyes. But there ARE some quick-fire "white lies" that just seem to make things easier.
Except that I hate doing it anyway. White lie? There's no such thing as a lie that won't backfire. It's not just whether they know.
I know. (And God, obviously.)
But some things are just easier. Like studying with Nick the other day. I didn't expect to meet him at church at all (until I was there, haha). I had told my parents I was studying alone. And yeah, it was true then. But I didn't mention it later, either, because more than anything I was worried they'd think I'd lied to them.
That's what I hate so much about lying. Firstly, it's wrong. It's just bloody wrong and I'm sorry if you disagree, but I would know and I'd dislike myself for it.
And then secondly, it destroys trust. If you can lie to other people, what makes you think they aren't lying to you?
It is hard to believe that a man is telling the truth when you know that you would lie if you were in his place.
And if they find out you didn't tell them the truth, their trust in you will be destroyed. Maybe they'll forgive you, but trust isn't as simple as forgiveness. (not that forgiveness is EASY. Simple is different from easy.)
You spend a lot of time building trust, and once it's broken it's really hard to build up again.
A quote by Tad Williams sums up the last reason why I'm gonna tell the truth from now on:
We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie, the thing that we fear grows stronger.
Posted by nayrakroarual at 7:51 PM
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