Thursday, August 02, 2007
pw is the worst subject on earth.
anyway, school's painful. it's not just the pw and tsd and ki assignments (shit haven't done ki), it's the old sores that keep reopening - house comm (like it or not, my heart will always belong to aquila! it doesn't help that yirui and hannah and all are in aquila too), friendships (used-to-be's or almost-was's - what's the difference anyway?) and yeah in general, just upsetting. i think i'm overreacting, but i even feel like i'm underreacting because i hate losing friends (or people i thought were friends/could have been friends). the only way that stops the hurt is to not care, but i hate not caring because ultimately i can't convince myself (well i can but i don't want to) that they weren't worth knowing and that we would never have gotten along. now i feel like i don't know them at all, like i'm looking at them from behind a glass wall, seeing that friendship just out of reach, like the diamond that slips from your fingers and drifts away down the river. i just keep asking myself what i did wrong, what went wrong, what happened.
i don't know.
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lucinda, daniel, michelle, haiwei and the twins are basically keeping me going at the moment. people like yirui, pamela, mark, shakura, shreya and xinhui too. =) thanks so much guys. i really, really appreciate it. love you all! *hugs*
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Posted by nayrakroarual at 10:04 PM
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