Wednesday, February 07, 2007

Tuesday
06.02.07
B2B JTS and random thoughts.

just found out the CNY rehearsal tomorrow got cancelled. damn. anyway, JTS was super fun. it occurred to me that the main reason, in fact almost the sole reason i want to join is also the reason i am not joining. it's the seniors. i love the odac seniors. as in they're just damn nice. and every time i see them as a group i'll be impressed at their bonded-ness and all and just wowed. haha. which is dumb because in the end the seniors are leaving really really soon and it's my peers i'll be working with. and if i'm doing it for the people and not the work itself, and the people leave, then i doubt i'd continue either. well, i would if i had joined because that would have meant i was willing to commit and was enthusiastic and passionate about it. i suppose it seems that i'm a very fickleminded uncommitted person, joining and dropping CCAs like nothing. but in the end i really love what i do and am passionate about what i want to do and that's why i make the choice to try and balance everything because i love everything. well, KI is kinda an exception. not that i'd love GP, so what the heck.

once again, a profound quote from chunhan's blog:

life that i know is a series of four-dimensional dots.
sometimes you don't know where it's taking you
but it all adds up to the big picture
a big picture of frustrating regrets and realisations.
some dots in life are hard to come by
but since we'll never know which ones they are until they're over,
treat everyone of them as though they're stars,
banished into our four-dimensional plane.
that way, it'll always look bright.
just like the sky tonight.

it just occurred to me i'm highly plagiarizing it. i meant to take just the last couple of lines, but it just seems to fit so nicely. got me thinking about how much i actually take a lot of people for granted. not just my friends, but my enemies as well. i think they'll always be there, as if they're the unchangeables of life (that was a quote from Artemis Fowl =D) but actually, they aren't, are they. they're all dots in life, everyone and everything is a tiny little dot in life that just flashes by quickly, often too small, such that i don't take appropriate notice, or appearing to stark against a white background, such that i spend to much time focusing on that tiny little fleck and don't see the big picture. i need to start treating everyone like stars, whether or not i like them, because only that way will life always look bright. if you treat those you aren't on that great terms with like shadows, they'll form large rainclouds over your day and no matter how much you pretend it doesn't matter, they will in the end darken your day. why should you ruin your own day by putting rainclouds in it? put stars in your own sky and it'll always be bright.


just like the sky tonight.


okay actually the sky's quite dark la but i mean it was a nice effect right =) hahahha

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